Thursday, July 23, 2009

ABOUT BREAST CANCER (a letter)

Subject: Breast Cancer Statistics
To: kristin_tehvan@yahoo.com
Date: Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 3:09 PM

So you are saying that all the women who died of breast cancer could have cured themselves by changing their thinking.
http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/understand_bc/statistics.jsp?gclid=CKiasp6p6psCFRFWagodoTq15w

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Yes. I wonder if the book Metamedicine is available in English. Anyhow, most forms of "cancer" are really signs of improvement after a (long) period of conflict. Cutting them off, heavy chemical treatment and irradiation make people very sick and great fear + hopelessness is what really killing those women. Their bodies get very weak and toxic and they just give up, can't fight the fear etc.
I'm sorry for the poor wording, I'm having a little hangover LOL, can't concentrate at the moment.

As for me, I found a lump in my breast at the end of 2005. I did nothing. It didn't change. I was quite sure on my own (without reading any material etc) that unless I know for sure what I decide to do about it I would do nothing, just forget about it and see. So now, in June, if I rememebr right, maybe in May, the lump rapidly got bigger (about the size of an egg) and started hurting. I had just a few month ago started to change my thinking and attitude towards life etc. It really is hard to talk about those things as there are no correct words and terms to talk about spiritual stuff. I knew I had to release my wrong attitude, let go my resentment and my demands towards life/world/all the people I thought "owed" me this and that... (I'm rambling! I know, very bad LOL) Well anyway, I remember you were a key-person at that time, you helped me to release all that shit just by being there, and all of a sudden I was so happy and I went to the sea and walked in joy and rejoyced - no, I'm not an idiot, I just don't know English LOL
Well, the next day the lump was gone. Totally gone. no pain either. One big dark blue vessel is still there but it doesn't matter, it won't feed my "misery" anymore, I cut it off.

Later on I happened upon the book Metamedicine and it was a pleasure to read it (mostly women who had had a breast cancer tell their stories there) - I could relate very closely to everything there. Btw, they say cancer in the left breast is the sign of a conflict with female relatives (often mother) and/or losing home - I had lump in my left breast and I had thought it's because of my conflict with men, but then I realized it was my inability to forgive my mother for my sad childhood, not getting divorced, holding up to this stupid house my father owned and so on, and it was also my grief about losing my home which I couldn't let go. Conflicts with men create lumps/cancer in the right breast and I have had no problems with my right breast.

As for arthritis - it is always a sing of riGid creed (belief). It's usually old people's condition. They think they know it all and are not willing to reconsider anything or change anything. I suppose it's very comfortable to have a "ready" textbook for everything in life. It's hard to change your thinking when you are old...
Hands (wrists, arms) are means of giving and receiving. Usually it is interpreted that the left hand is receiving hand and the right hand is giving hand (can be and probably is on the contrary when the person is left-handed). I personally think that you have lost your ability to receive and by getting your wrist operated on and taking medicine to soothe the pain you now have no reason to change. But that doesn't make your problems go away, you just don't have to work on them right now. But it's possible that you will get bigger problems (physically) later on. Especially hormones aren't things that I personally would mess with, they are way too important for our bodies. Remember, I gave up my medicine for my thyroid gland and I'm doing fine now. Instead of taking medicine (my doc said I would have to take them for the rest of my life!!!) and getting my thyroid gland operated on (thus making the process irreversible) I started working on my attitude.

Actually it's very simple - whatever we are here for (and the "MEANING" of life was always so very important to me!!!) - we can make it really simple and say that we are TO BE HAPPY AND IF POSSIBLE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY AS WELL. Actually we ARE making others happy just by being happy. We simply add to the GREATER GOOD and that's somthing that everybody can do, no matter what their "facts of life" are. I realized that I had been carrying a very heavy baggage with me through my whole life - the discontentment with the world, - my parents, my conditions, my late husband, my fucked up personality and so on and on. I realized that nothing stops me of getting it off of my back and just leave it there and go on with my hands in my pockets and whistle on my lips. It sounds easy, but strangely enough it can be tricky... because - WHO ARE WE WITHOUT OUR BAGGAGES? I know the answer. Do you?

I'll add a pic to this email, it helped me a lot. It acutally made me understand why some people can be so cheerful in life while others see only sorrow. It's what you concentrate on. We all see what we want to see.

Sending you Love and Light and a hug :)
K.



Wednesday, July 22, 2009

LOL

*Truly stupid things found on other things.

On Sears hairdryer:Do not use while sleeping.(Gee, that's the only time I have to work on my hair!)

On a bag of Fritos:You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.(The shoplifter special!)

On a bar of Dial soap:Directions: Use like regular soap.(And that would be how?)

On some Swann frozen dinners:Serving suggestion: Defrost.(But it's 'just' a suggestion!)

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert: (printed on bottom of the box)Do not turn upside down.(Too late! you lose!)

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding:Product will be hot after heating.(Are you sure? Let's experiment.)

On packaging for a Rowenta iron:Do not iron clothes on body.(But wouldn't that save more time?)(Whose body?)

On Boot's Children's cough medicine:Do not drive car or operate machinery.(We could do a lot to reduce the construction accidents if we just kept those 5 year olds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol sleep aid:Warning: may cause drowsiness.(One would hope!)

On a Korean kitchen knife:Warning: keep out of children.(hmm...something must have gotten lost in the translation...)

On a string of Christmas lights:For indoor or outdoor use only.(As opposed to use in outer space.)

a food processor:Not to be used for the other use.(Now I'm curious.)

On Sainsbury's peanuts:Warning: contains nuts.(but no peas?)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts:Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.(Somebody got paid big bucks to write this one...)

On a Swedish chainsaw:Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands.(Raise your hand if you've tried this...)

On a child's Superman costume:Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly.(Oh go ahead! That's right, destroy a universal childhood belief.)


Tuesday, July 21, 2009

MY GARDEN

If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need. Marcus Tullius Cicero
Show me your garden and I shall tell you what you are.
Alfred Austin
The best place to find God is in a garden. You can dig for him there. George Bernard Shaw
Won't you come into the garden? I would like my roses to see you.
Richard Brinsley Sheridan
Want to be happy forever? - Plant a garden. /can't find the source/

Mul on akna peal aed / I have a garden on my window
Seal kasvab porgand, kuusk, asalea ja kaks tundmatut lille / There's a carrot, a spur, an azalea and two unknown flowers
Ja üks ämblikuvõrk, mis saab nähtavaks õhtul / And a cobweb that lights up at sunset


Monday, July 20, 2009

TRIP TO MUHUMAA 16 - 18 JULY

This is the small island where Marit has a small summer house

Leaving the port Virtsu

Our car was the last on to get on this ferry. The crossing of the bay took only 30 minutes.

Kuivastu port, Muhumaa



Marit

The kids went right into the pond

Marit's hut hiding in the bush

The road to the beach - there's junipers everywhere on Estonia's islands

We found unbelievable amount of wild strawberries everywhere

Yumm....

The porch

The pond seen from the porch

Ivonna-Ly (11) with the berries she picked

Kärttu (10), Marit's daughter, the spoiled nest-egg ;)

Didn't like to pick but sure likes to eat ;))

The hut. It has one big room where we all slept



The nearest neighbor's house, Marit's partner Merle's property


First time we went to the sea I forgot to take any pics because I was too busy with swimming in amazingly lukewarm water. This time we went to see the wild swans later at night. (Marit)


Marit and Caesar waiting me up while I'm taking pics of every flower, straw and such LOL


Isn't it delightful?

Caesar is a rescue-dog by heart. It was really difficult to swim while he was trying to "save" us from drowning (I still have a big blue line on my thigh from his claw :P






We didn't get anywhere near to the swans, so I zoomed in and just took a pic without seeing what I got. Later on I was happy to realize that I did get some swans on the picture.




Our kitchen/livingroom

Later that night Marit's other friends joined us. Here's Margit (36) with her daughter Katriin (12) and I took that pic mainly because I was surprised that they really looked like sisters (almost twins!) Margit is 5'9'' and Katriin is almost same.

Marit, our host, maid and cook. I just adore people who won't ail over their figure and feel completely free in every situation :) I have so much to learn from her!


Cooking us breakfast the next morning, Friday

Assol dressing up to a 85 F weather (~ 30 C) She claimed that she was ill...


Later this morning Marit and I went to the port to pick up my daughter Dagni who was brought there by her man Egon who was going to Saaremaa for a big beer-festival called Õlletoober
(kibble) He's originally from Saaremaa so that's where all his buddies are to meet once a year.


Dagni and Assol sunbathing


I sat there almost all day in the sun... No wonder I got totally sunburnt. I can't understand why I didn't think of a sun screen or something, I haven't been sunbathing for over 6 years! Later that night I was in bed with shivers and later got blisters which start to break by now. What fun!

Ivonna-Ly (Assol's daughter), Kärttu and Katriin playing cards






I asked Dagni to pose for me, I want to have nice pics of my pregnant daughter. I have none of myself which is kinda sad... She's 8 months pregnant by now, I think she's still beautiful :)





She thinks her legs are too fat so I had to promise that I wouldn't put thouse pics on any site where her firends could see them. Well, luckily none of them knows this blog :P




Lunch time

I think it's kind of meaningful and wonderful that our gang was composed of 4 mothers and 4 daughters :)


AND HERE ARE SOME IRRELEVANT PICS which I took here and there, I just love to take pics of flowers and nature in general. It's the most beautiful model there is...








My ikebana

Juniper's berries

Thyme







The sun in the bottle