Battlefield Report: August 2009

Friday, August 28, 2009

I'M ALIVE!

I am in love with myself again!
Why took it so long? Is it really so that when you see the world as a bad place you can’t help but to see yourself as a bad creature? When life seems ugly and unfair you seem to yourself as a part of it, ugly and unfair also. But think of all the FEELINGS! Even the bad ones, even the worst ones, is it bad to be able to feel all that?! It doesn’t matter that I get more wrinkles every day or the old ones get deeper. You can say that I'm old or fat or whatever, it doesn't matter. I’m alive.
I*M A L I V E!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

50 QUESTIONS

50 Questions That Don't Really Tell You Anything About Who I Am...

Yesterday at 12:05pm

[0] Who was your last text from?A deaf man who I don’t know (yet)
[1] Where was your default pic taken?Default pic? I don’t understand. Last pic of me was taken at the airport on Thursday
[2] Your relationship status?a widow
[3] Where did you meet your crush?online
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?hmm… some have died
[5] What is your current mood?OK, benevolent… LOL[6] Whats your brother(s) names?no brothers
[7] Sister's names?no sisters
[8] Where do you wish you where (were) right now?in the mountains of Colorado
[9] Have a crazy side?Not sure, probably not, sure hope to stay normal for the rest of my life (and beyond LOL)
[10] Ever had a near death experience?I think so but how do I know for sure?
11 Ever farted on a date?No.
[12] Angry at anyone?Nope
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?He does LOL[14] When was the last time you cried?Yesterday morning
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?No, not anything, never.
[16] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?Random stuff, trying not to think, stop all inner monologues
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?My son
[18] What is your favorite song?Too many (Morning Has Broken by Cat Stevens? LOL)
[19] What are you doing right now?This.[
20] Do you trust anyone right now?I trust most people, why not?
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?Don’t remember
[22] Have you hugged someone in the past week?No, I rarely hug anyone
[23] How many people have you loved?What’s love? I love my kids so two for sure
[24] Describe your life in one word!Quiet
[25] Who/What are you thinking of right now?right now my mind went blank LOL
[26] What should you be doing right now?Nothing, I do what I want to do
[27] What are you listening to?Nothing, silence’s the best
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?Don’t remember… my daughter?
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?Yes. I’m a perfect mirror When someone I like is around I act much better
[31] What is your natural hair color?Dark chocolate brown
[32] Who was the last person to make you laughMy son (he always does)
[33] Who was the last person to make you mad?Hmm… don’t remember really. I don’t get mad often
[34] What pets do you have?A cat and fish (cat’s actually my son’s)
[35] Is your hair naturally curly or straight?Straight
[36] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?Nope[37] When did you loose your virginity?When I was 14. I was raped.
[38] Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?Nope
[39] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?Yes, all the time
[40] Plans for the weekend?It’s Sunday and no, no plans
[41] Are you happy with life right now?Yes[42] Are you currently jealous?Not really.
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?A ring and 3 earrings
[44] What are you doing Friday night?Whatever I want
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?Yup, but it was my own fault – I put it into hands of a careless person and he dropped it ;))
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?Hopefully not
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?Not really
[48] Last person you saw?My son this morning leaving for work
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?Until 2am because of the damned Farmville LOL
[50]How is your heart lately?Free