MARSI * VEENUSEGA : 3. nov 2009 - apr. lõpp 2010

Ample opportunities
Valid during many months: This influence arouses your sexual drives and makes you seek a physical relationship with another person, if you do not already have one. It favors an existing relationship, for both of you will be able to give and receive from each other and thereby gain gratification through the relationship. Entertainment and fun are two key themes of this time, which favors get-togethers and parties. You will get the greatest personal satisfaction from associating with others and having a good time. You will enjoy any activity much more if you can share it with others, for this is a very gregarious influence. This is a good time for artistic activity, as well as for getting together with others for artistic purposes. This influence should present you with ample opportunities to fulfill both needs.
The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today: Mars Sextile Venus, , exact at 10:57 activity period from 3 November 2009 until end of April 2010

POLEGI PEALKIRJA JÄLLE

Lapselaps on väga salapärane olevus. Samas võiks kergesti ja kõhklemata ta eest oma elu ära anda :)

PÄIKE VÕRGUS

"Leave the seeing in the seeing. Leave the hearing in the hearing."

PEALKIRJATU

Profession and social standing
Valid during several weeks: This is a time when you should turn your attention to the most outward aspects of your life - your career, your role in the larger society and your standing and reputation within the community. You should also take this time to examine your life as a whole and see if you are going in the direction you want and making adequate progress in your life. This transit is future oriented rather than past oriented. You may have to deal with elements of your past, but only to make corrections so that you can plan more intelligently for the future. The only real danger of this transit is that if you have done something wrong or in a slipshod fashion it may be exposed now and trip you up in unpleasant ways. It would be a very good idea to look over your life and correct any situations that might give you problems in this way.

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:Sun in the 10th House, 10, activity period from 27 September 2009 until end of October 2009

Just täpselt! Naljakas, kuidas astroloogia ikkagi näib toimivat. Mis puudutab oma elu suuna eksamineerimist, siis seda ma just teengi ja imestan pidevalt, kuidas ma kuidagi ei jõu ühessegi suunda, kuhu olen tahtnud jõuda. Ma tean, miks. Mitmesse suunda samaaegselt ei saa ju minna, samas võtab püüdlemine kõvasti energiat. Segadus võtab samuti hullusti energiat. Mul on umbes 5 erinevat suunda ja ma muudkui heitlen nende vahel. Samas, ma vähemalt üritan püsida ühes üldises suunas ja see on enda paremaks muutmine. Vahel on ka tagasilööke ja langusi ja vaikuseperioode, aga ma saan sellest üle.

KRISTIN

Kristin possesses a clear, strong and objective mind, and is on her way toward developing into a person who will always favour reason over chaos and harmony over emotional turmoil. Mental acumen is apparent in her rapid grasp of concepts, her obvious pleasure in communicating [...]

[..] Kristin also has a profound sense of what is fair and right, and will not hesitate to make her views and feelings known if she senses injustice taking place around her. She might organise other children to challenge the class bully, or might protest to the teacher about [...]

[..] She would benefit from early exposure to beauty in the form of nature and the arts, especially painting and ballet. Even if she is not old enough to absorb the intellectual content of such things she will readily respond to their beauty. Coarseness ­ in surroundings or [...]

[..] She may also allow others to invade her boundaries and take advantage of her good nature because she prefers any company to no company at all, and she may not be able to say "No" even when her well-being depends on it. Her lively and gifted mind needs time for reflection [...]

[..] But those who can make her laugh and can share her spirit of curiosity about life will always keep her affection. Above all, words matter to Kristin, and a good flow of communication ­ however "frivolous" or "silly" ­ is absolutely essential for her in any important relationship. Versatile, [...]

[..] This can provide her with a sound and healthy emotional base of self-knowledge, so that she can move out into life with genuine tolerance of and compassion for the whole spectrum of human emotion. Kristin is deeply attuned to her mother's hidden emotional life, and may sense [...]

From
The Child's HoroscopeFree Try-Out Editionfor Kristin Tehvan, born on 5 May 1962
Text by Liz Greene, Copyright © Astrodienst AG 2009

Sounds like me, ma olen ikkagi lapseks jäänud :P

SÕNN

Sõnn on aeglane inimene. Võtkem näiteks seismise pikas järjekorras. Enamik ei vaevukski, aga Sõnn seisab pool tundi ja lahkub näiteks siis, kui ainult kaks inimest enne teda on jäänud. Miks? Mine võta kinni. Lihtsalt viskas ära. Aega läks, aga ära viskas.

Sõnn on tõsine. Ta on nii tõsine, et mitte keegi ei suuda seda tõsiselt võtta. Arvatakse, et tal on lihtsalt hea huumorimeel.

Sõnn on äärmiselt kartlik. Vana jama tundub igatahes ohutum kui mingi uus värk, kasvõi hea värk. Sõnn veedab aastaid vanas jamas.

Sõnn on lojaalne. Tema lojaalsus paistab teistele ülepingutatud ja igav. See ongi tegelt igav.

Sõnn on pessimistlik. Ta ei usu, et rohi oleks tegelikult rohelisem isegi sealpool tara.

Sõnn on loomuldasa aus. Keegi ei usu ta valetamist.

Sõnn on sihikindel. Otsustamine võib võtta küll 5 ja pool aastat aega, aga kui otsus tehtud, ei kaldu ta enam kõrvale.

4th September

BE IT

Be the change you want to see in the world!
(I know I am :)

I'M ALIVE!

I am in love with myself again!
Why took it so long? Is it really so that when you see the world as a bad place you can’t help but to see yourself as a bad creature? When life seems ugly and unfair you seem to yourself as a part of it, ugly and unfair also. But think of all the FEELINGS! Even the bad ones, even the worst ones, is it bad to be able to feel all that?! It doesn’t matter that I get more wrinkles every day or the old ones get deeper. You can say that I'm old or fat or whatever, it doesn't matter. I’m alive.
I*M A L I V E!!!

50 QUESTIONS

50 Questions That Don't Really Tell You Anything About Who I Am...

Yesterday at 12:05pm

[0] Who was your last text from?A deaf man who I don’t know (yet)
[1] Where was your default pic taken?Default pic? I don’t understand. Last pic of me was taken at the airport on Thursday
[2] Your relationship status?a widow
[3] Where did you meet your crush?online
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?hmm… some have died
[5] What is your current mood?OK, benevolent… LOL[6] Whats your brother(s) names?no brothers
[7] Sister's names?no sisters
[8] Where do you wish you where (were) right now?in the mountains of Colorado
[9] Have a crazy side?Not sure, probably not, sure hope to stay normal for the rest of my life (and beyond LOL)
[10] Ever had a near death experience?I think so but how do I know for sure?
11 Ever farted on a date?No.
[12] Angry at anyone?Nope
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?He does LOL[14] When was the last time you cried?Yesterday morning
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?No, not anything, never.
[16] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?Random stuff, trying not to think, stop all inner monologues
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?My son
[18] What is your favorite song?Too many (Morning Has Broken by Cat Stevens? LOL)
[19] What are you doing right now?This.[
20] Do you trust anyone right now?I trust most people, why not?
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?Don’t remember
[22] Have you hugged someone in the past week?No, I rarely hug anyone
[23] How many people have you loved?What’s love? I love my kids so two for sure
[24] Describe your life in one word!Quiet
[25] Who/What are you thinking of right now?right now my mind went blank LOL
[26] What should you be doing right now?Nothing, I do what I want to do
[27] What are you listening to?Nothing, silence’s the best
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?Don’t remember… my daughter?
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?Yes. I’m a perfect mirror When someone I like is around I act much better
[31] What is your natural hair color?Dark chocolate brown
[32] Who was the last person to make you laughMy son (he always does)
[33] Who was the last person to make you mad?Hmm… don’t remember really. I don’t get mad often
[34] What pets do you have?A cat and fish (cat’s actually my son’s)
[35] Is your hair naturally curly or straight?Straight
[36] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?Nope[37] When did you loose your virginity?When I was 14. I was raped.
[38] Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?Nope
[39] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?Yes, all the time
[40] Plans for the weekend?It’s Sunday and no, no plans
[41] Are you happy with life right now?Yes[42] Are you currently jealous?Not really.
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?A ring and 3 earrings
[44] What are you doing Friday night?Whatever I want
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?Yup, but it was my own fault – I put it into hands of a careless person and he dropped it ;))
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?Hopefully not
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?Not really
[48] Last person you saw?My son this morning leaving for work
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?Until 2am because of the damned Farmville LOL
[50]How is your heart lately?Free

VABADUSE VÄLJAK

Ilutukestik eilsel Vabaduse väljaku avamisel peale remonti.

IT*S A GIRL!

I just found out the gender of my unborn grandchild - it's a GIRL!
http://www.chinesegenderchart.info/pregnancy-chart-gender-selection/howitwork.html

I found this and looked up myself, my daughter and my son, my daughter's baby and my best friend's both kids - so far it's correct!

5 DAYS OF VACATION LEFT

Spicecomments.com - Flowers Comments

ABOUT BREAST CANCER (a letter)

Subject: Breast Cancer Statistics
To: kristin_tehvan@yahoo.com
Date: Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 3:09 PM

So you are saying that all the women who died of breast cancer could have cured themselves by changing their thinking.
http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/understand_bc/statistics.jsp?gclid=CKiasp6p6psCFRFWagodoTq15w

***

Yes. I wonder if the book Metamedicine is available in English. Anyhow, most forms of "cancer" are really signs of improvement after a (long) period of conflict. Cutting them off, heavy chemical treatment and irradiation make people very sick and great fear + hopelessness is what really killing those women. Their bodies get very weak and toxic and they just give up, can't fight the fear etc.
I'm sorry for the poor wording, I'm having a little hangover LOL, can't concentrate at the moment.

As for me, I found a lump in my breast at the end of 2005. I did nothing. It didn't change. I was quite sure on my own (without reading any material etc) that unless I know for sure what I decide to do about it I would do nothing, just forget about it and see. So now, in June, if I rememebr right, maybe in May, the lump rapidly got bigger (about the size of an egg) and started hurting. I had just a few month ago started to change my thinking and attitude towards life etc. It really is hard to talk about those things as there are no correct words and terms to talk about spiritual stuff. I knew I had to release my wrong attitude, let go my resentment and my demands towards life/world/all the people I thought "owed" me this and that... (I'm rambling! I know, very bad LOL) Well anyway, I remember you were a key-person at that time, you helped me to release all that shit just by being there, and all of a sudden I was so happy and I went to the sea and walked in joy and rejoyced - no, I'm not an idiot, I just don't know English LOL
Well, the next day the lump was gone. Totally gone. no pain either. One big dark blue vessel is still there but it doesn't matter, it won't feed my "misery" anymore, I cut it off.

Later on I happened upon the book Metamedicine and it was a pleasure to read it (mostly women who had had a breast cancer tell their stories there) - I could relate very closely to everything there. Btw, they say cancer in the left breast is the sign of a conflict with female relatives (often mother) and/or losing home - I had lump in my left breast and I had thought it's because of my conflict with men, but then I realized it was my inability to forgive my mother for my sad childhood, not getting divorced, holding up to this stupid house my father owned and so on, and it was also my grief about losing my home which I couldn't let go. Conflicts with men create lumps/cancer in the right breast and I have had no problems with my right breast.

As for arthritis - it is always a sing of riGid creed (belief). It's usually old people's condition. They think they know it all and are not willing to reconsider anything or change anything. I suppose it's very comfortable to have a "ready" textbook for everything in life. It's hard to change your thinking when you are old...
Hands (wrists, arms) are means of giving and receiving. Usually it is interpreted that the left hand is receiving hand and the right hand is giving hand (can be and probably is on the contrary when the person is left-handed). I personally think that you have lost your ability to receive and by getting your wrist operated on and taking medicine to soothe the pain you now have no reason to change. But that doesn't make your problems go away, you just don't have to work on them right now. But it's possible that you will get bigger problems (physically) later on. Especially hormones aren't things that I personally would mess with, they are way too important for our bodies. Remember, I gave up my medicine for my thyroid gland and I'm doing fine now. Instead of taking medicine (my doc said I would have to take them for the rest of my life!!!) and getting my thyroid gland operated on (thus making the process irreversible) I started working on my attitude.

Actually it's very simple - whatever we are here for (and the "MEANING" of life was always so very important to me!!!) - we can make it really simple and say that we are TO BE HAPPY AND IF POSSIBLE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY AS WELL. Actually we ARE making others happy just by being happy. We simply add to the GREATER GOOD and that's somthing that everybody can do, no matter what their "facts of life" are. I realized that I had been carrying a very heavy baggage with me through my whole life - the discontentment with the world, - my parents, my conditions, my late husband, my fucked up personality and so on and on. I realized that nothing stops me of getting it off of my back and just leave it there and go on with my hands in my pockets and whistle on my lips. It sounds easy, but strangely enough it can be tricky... because - WHO ARE WE WITHOUT OUR BAGGAGES? I know the answer. Do you?

I'll add a pic to this email, it helped me a lot. It acutally made me understand why some people can be so cheerful in life while others see only sorrow. It's what you concentrate on. We all see what we want to see.

Sending you Love and Light and a hug :)
K.

LOL

*Truly stupid things found on other things.

On Sears hairdryer:Do not use while sleeping.(Gee, that's the only time I have to work on my hair!)

On a bag of Fritos:You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.(The shoplifter special!)

On a bar of Dial soap:Directions: Use like regular soap.(And that would be how?)

On some Swann frozen dinners:Serving suggestion: Defrost.(But it's 'just' a suggestion!)

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert: (printed on bottom of the box)Do not turn upside down.(Too late! you lose!)

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding:Product will be hot after heating.(Are you sure? Let's experiment.)

On packaging for a Rowenta iron:Do not iron clothes on body.(But wouldn't that save more time?)(Whose body?)

On Boot's Children's cough medicine:Do not drive car or operate machinery.(We could do a lot to reduce the construction accidents if we just kept those 5 year olds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol sleep aid:Warning: may cause drowsiness.(One would hope!)

On a Korean kitchen knife:Warning: keep out of children.(hmm...something must have gotten lost in the translation...)

On a string of Christmas lights:For indoor or outdoor use only.(As opposed to use in outer space.)

a food processor:Not to be used for the other use.(Now I'm curious.)

On Sainsbury's peanuts:Warning: contains nuts.(but no peas?)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts:Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.(Somebody got paid big bucks to write this one...)

On a Swedish chainsaw:Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands.(Raise your hand if you've tried this...)

On a child's Superman costume:Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly.(Oh go ahead! That's right, destroy a universal childhood belief.)

MY GARDEN

If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need. Marcus Tullius Cicero
Show me your garden and I shall tell you what you are. Alfred Austin
The best place to find God is in a garden. You can dig for him there. George Bernard Shaw
Won't you come into the garden? I would like my roses to see you. Richard Brinsley Sheridan
Want to be happy forever? - Plant a garden. /can't find the source/

Mul on akna peal aed / I have a garden on my window
Seal kasvab porgand, kuusk, asalea ja kaks tundmatut lille / There's a carrot, a spur, an azalea and two unknown flowers
Ja üks ämblikuvõrk, mis saab nähtavaks õhtul / And a cobweb that lights up at sunset

TRIP TO MUHUMAA 16 - 18 JULY

This is the small island where Marit has a small summer house

Leaving the port Virtsu

Our car was the last on to get on this ferry. The crossing of the bay took only 30 minutes.

Kuivastu port, Muhumaa

Marit

The kids went right into the pond

Marit's hut hiding in the bush

The road to the beach - there's junipers everywhere on Estonia's islands

We found unbelievable amount of wild strawberries everywhere

Yumm....

The porch

The pond seen from the porch

Ivonna-Ly (11) with the berries she picked

Kärttu (10), Marit's daughter, the spoiled nest-egg ;)

Didn't like to pick but sure likes to eat ;))

The hut. It has one big room where we all slept

The nearest neighbor's house, Marit's partner Merle's property

First time we went to the sea I forgot to take any pics because I was too busy with swimming in amazingly lukewarm water. This time we went to see the wild swans later at night. (Marit)

Marit and Caesar waiting me up while I'm taking pics of every flower, straw and such LOL

Isn't it delightful?

Caesar is a rescue-dog by heart. It was really difficult to swim while he was trying to "save" us from drowning (I still have a big blue line on my thigh from his claw :P

We didn't get anywhere near to the swans, so I zoomed in and just took a pic without seeing what I got. Later on I was happy to realize that I did get some swans on the picture.

Our kitchen/livingroom

Later that night Marit's other friends joined us. Here's Margit (36) with her daughter Katriin (12) and I took that pic mainly because I was surprised that they really looked like sisters (almost twins!) Margit is 5'9'' and Katriin is almost same.

Marit, our host, maid and cook. I just adore people who won't ail over their figure and feel completely free in every situation :) I have so much to learn from her!

Cooking us breakfast the next morning, Friday

Assol dressing up to a 85 F weather (~ 30 C) She claimed that she was ill...

Later this morning Marit and I went to the port to pick up my daughter Dagni who was brought there by her man Egon who was going to Saaremaa for a big beer-festival called Õlletoober
(kibble) He's originally from Saaremaa so that's where all his buddies are to meet once a year.

Dagni and Assol sunbathing

I sat there almost all day in the sun... No wonder I got totally sunburnt. I can't understand why I didn't think of a sun screen or something, I haven't been sunbathing for over 6 years! Later that night I was in bed with shivers and later got blisters which start to break by now. What fun!

Ivonna-Ly (Assol's daughter), Kärttu and Katriin playing cards

I asked Dagni to pose for me, I want to have nice pics of my pregnant daughter. I have none of myself which is kinda sad... She's 8 months pregnant by now, I think she's still beautiful :)

She thinks her legs are too fat so I had to promise that I wouldn't put thouse pics on any site where her firends could see them. Well, luckily none of them knows this blog :P

Lunch time

I think it's kind of meaningful and wonderful that our gang was composed of 4 mothers and 4 daughters :)


AND HERE ARE SOME IRRELEVANT PICS which I took here and there, I just love to take pics of flowers and nature in general. It's the most beautiful model there is...

My ikebana

Juniper's berries

Thyme

The sun in the bottle