Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Friday, March 9, 2012
ARVESTAGE, ET
suur osa eelnenud astroloogiavärgist on jura või on vähemalt ajad valed. Pigem on ajad valed, aga mulle meeldib ka mõelda, et see kõik on jura. Mulle meeldib hoopis see Päikese ja Pluuto trigoon, mis mul praegu käimas on, lihtsalt vahelduse mõttes.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
My name is Yon Yonsson...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP5fmeax-3U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJIGo1tL9yA&feature=related
I´m in love! With both of them!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJIGo1tL9yA&feature=related
I´m in love! With both of them!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
HULLEMAKS ALLES LÄHEB :(
Uranus sextile Mercury: Just a little pin prick
Beginning of May 2011 until mid January 2013:
This influence stimulates your thinking and your communication with others, giving your life an excitement and interest that it may normally lack. You also feel that you cannot stand boredom, so you aid the natural energy of this influence in every way possible. During this time you may seek out new contacts and friendships that reflect your desire for new experiences.
This same restlessness of spirit may also make you want to travel, at least to see more of the countryside around you, if not for long distances. You desire to know your immediate environment as completely as possible and let nothing escape you. If there is anything happening, you want to know about it.
Your natural curiosity is stimulated now, which makes this an extremely good time for beginning to study a new subject. However, you will not be particularly disciplined, so your interest must be very strong in order to keep your motivation up. If the subject becomes dull, you are likely to drop it. The study of science, mathematics, technological studies - especially electronics and computer work - as well as astrology or other occult techniques is favored by this influence.
One strong point of this influence is that it helps you make constructive changes in your thinking. You are not rigid at this time, and because you are so receptive to new ideas it is easier for you to change your mind. Even when you discover that you have been wrong about something, you are not very upset. You are only too happy to find it out and add this to your understanding.
This influence may put you into a rather prankish frame of mind, especially when you are with someone who seems pompous and overbearing. You will want to prick that person's balloon and bring him down to earth. Also, because you are so open to new ideas and experience, you feel that everyone else should be too. You may have difficulty in leaving people alone, but do try to. They have a right to their own narrowness, just as you have a right to your beliefs.
Uranus conjunction IC: New insights
End of May 2011 until end of January 2013:
At this time there will be many changes within yourself, which will be reflected in your immediate personal environment - your home - and in your most intimate personal relationships within the home, as with parents or partner. This influence can signify disruptive events in this area of your life and energies that require you to drop everything else to deal with.
On the most mundane level this influence can signify a sudden event in your home or real estate - damage to the buildings, a sudden need for repairs or the like. But this is only an outward sign of the need for change within. Something that has been hidden away for years and years struggles to break free. But if you suppress it, the energy transfers to your environment and causes disruptions. You may have to deal with aspects of yourself you never even knew existed in order to come to a new understanding of yourself. People may not be very aware of this happening, but you will be, and so will those closest to you. You may find it necessary to make tremendous changes in your home and in those relationships that most affect your home to reflect this new encounter with yourself.
Since this influence is also associated with profession and social status, you may expect changes in these areas, too. You may encounter opposition from others in your profession, people who do not want you to get ahead or achieve your purposes. Try to find out what the problem is and come to terms with these people. If you ride roughshod over them, they will try to hurt you as much as possible. This is also true in any aspect of your social life, if your actions seem to threaten someone else. There is a danger of a sudden fall in social position with this influence, usually because you have acted without considering others. They then feel that there is no recourse but to bring you down.
Take this time to discover new truths about yourself, deal with them as honestly as possible and make these insights part of a new way of being. Then you will not have to contend with the worst effects of this influence.
Beginning of May 2011 until mid January 2013:
This influence stimulates your thinking and your communication with others, giving your life an excitement and interest that it may normally lack. You also feel that you cannot stand boredom, so you aid the natural energy of this influence in every way possible. During this time you may seek out new contacts and friendships that reflect your desire for new experiences.
This same restlessness of spirit may also make you want to travel, at least to see more of the countryside around you, if not for long distances. You desire to know your immediate environment as completely as possible and let nothing escape you. If there is anything happening, you want to know about it.
Your natural curiosity is stimulated now, which makes this an extremely good time for beginning to study a new subject. However, you will not be particularly disciplined, so your interest must be very strong in order to keep your motivation up. If the subject becomes dull, you are likely to drop it. The study of science, mathematics, technological studies - especially electronics and computer work - as well as astrology or other occult techniques is favored by this influence.
One strong point of this influence is that it helps you make constructive changes in your thinking. You are not rigid at this time, and because you are so receptive to new ideas it is easier for you to change your mind. Even when you discover that you have been wrong about something, you are not very upset. You are only too happy to find it out and add this to your understanding.
This influence may put you into a rather prankish frame of mind, especially when you are with someone who seems pompous and overbearing. You will want to prick that person's balloon and bring him down to earth. Also, because you are so open to new ideas and experience, you feel that everyone else should be too. You may have difficulty in leaving people alone, but do try to. They have a right to their own narrowness, just as you have a right to your beliefs.
Uranus conjunction IC: New insights
End of May 2011 until end of January 2013:
At this time there will be many changes within yourself, which will be reflected in your immediate personal environment - your home - and in your most intimate personal relationships within the home, as with parents or partner. This influence can signify disruptive events in this area of your life and energies that require you to drop everything else to deal with.
On the most mundane level this influence can signify a sudden event in your home or real estate - damage to the buildings, a sudden need for repairs or the like. But this is only an outward sign of the need for change within. Something that has been hidden away for years and years struggles to break free. But if you suppress it, the energy transfers to your environment and causes disruptions. You may have to deal with aspects of yourself you never even knew existed in order to come to a new understanding of yourself. People may not be very aware of this happening, but you will be, and so will those closest to you. You may find it necessary to make tremendous changes in your home and in those relationships that most affect your home to reflect this new encounter with yourself.
Since this influence is also associated with profession and social status, you may expect changes in these areas, too. You may encounter opposition from others in your profession, people who do not want you to get ahead or achieve your purposes. Try to find out what the problem is and come to terms with these people. If you ride roughshod over them, they will try to hurt you as much as possible. This is also true in any aspect of your social life, if your actions seem to threaten someone else. There is a danger of a sudden fall in social position with this influence, usually because you have acted without considering others. They then feel that there is no recourse but to bring you down.
Take this time to discover new truths about yourself, deal with them as honestly as possible and make these insights part of a new way of being. Then you will not have to contend with the worst effects of this influence.
Friday, February 25, 2011
DECISIONS / WITH THE FLOW
Two posts I found in my mail this morning, both just like exact answers to my desperate questions last night. If only I could have faith...
Decisions
My decisions are grounded in Spirit.
I may feel pressure to make a fast and hurried decision. Or I may be asked to make a decision that I'm not ready to make. Even though there may be people waiting for me, I allow myself the time I need. Instead of leaping to a quick decision, I may even decide not to decide.
Instead of forcing myself to make a choice, I create a space of no decision. I give myself time to gain clarity, to see what I might not have seen before. In this space, I have time to fully align with Spirit, time to realize guidance and direction.
With patience and confidence, I commit to feeling grounded and secure in every decision I make.
Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord.--Psalm 31:24
With the flow
Don't force the experience of your life to be a certain way. Allow it to naturally unfold in accordance with your authentic intentions.
When you try too hard, all you get is trying, and the frustration that comes with it. Let life's goodness come to you, and you'll understand that there's never any need to grab it.
Pushing against the flow will mainly bring you pain. Instead, go along with the flow of life's energy, and you can experience whatever you truly desire.
Marvel at the beauty and possibility in each moment that comes, as it comes. Then peacefully let it go, and allow the new beauty of the next moment to fill your awareness.
You will experience all that you sincerely choose to experience by knowing and seeing that it is already available to you. Whatever you envision will come flowing through your thoughts, words, feelings and actions as you allow it to come.
Feel the immense power of your own existence. And allow your highest vision to peacefully come to life.
Decisions
My decisions are grounded in Spirit.
I may feel pressure to make a fast and hurried decision. Or I may be asked to make a decision that I'm not ready to make. Even though there may be people waiting for me, I allow myself the time I need. Instead of leaping to a quick decision, I may even decide not to decide.
Instead of forcing myself to make a choice, I create a space of no decision. I give myself time to gain clarity, to see what I might not have seen before. In this space, I have time to fully align with Spirit, time to realize guidance and direction.
With patience and confidence, I commit to feeling grounded and secure in every decision I make.
Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord.--Psalm 31:24
With the flow
Don't force the experience of your life to be a certain way. Allow it to naturally unfold in accordance with your authentic intentions.
When you try too hard, all you get is trying, and the frustration that comes with it. Let life's goodness come to you, and you'll understand that there's never any need to grab it.
Pushing against the flow will mainly bring you pain. Instead, go along with the flow of life's energy, and you can experience whatever you truly desire.
Marvel at the beauty and possibility in each moment that comes, as it comes. Then peacefully let it go, and allow the new beauty of the next moment to fill your awareness.
You will experience all that you sincerely choose to experience by knowing and seeing that it is already available to you. Whatever you envision will come flowing through your thoughts, words, feelings and actions as you allow it to come.
Feel the immense power of your own existence. And allow your highest vision to peacefully come to life.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
MY BRAND NEW LIFE BEGINS
Ego losses ***
Valid during many months: At this time in your life your relationships with others are likely to become confused and difficult. You may encounter persons who try to dissuade you from a course of action that you have been committed to for years, with the result that you become confused about the direction of your life. The other person's intentions in this may be either good or bad.
This is not a good time to become involved in any kind of contractual or business negotiations. Even if the people whom you are dealing with are completely honest - and with this influence they may very well be dishonest - you will find it difficult to think clearly about your own goals and objectives in the negotiations. As a result you will not get what you want from the procedure.
On the metaphysical plane there is a lesson to be learned from this influence. The less involved your ego is in a situation, the more freedom you will have to do what you want. By bringing about a loss, this influence often shows us that our attachment to material objects or to certain personal relationships has prevented us from being free. So it is not usually the influence itself that causes losses or confusion, but your ego's relentless drive to maintain the game it is playing. And this may be happening at your expense, when viewed from a higher perspective. When your ego takes over in this way, you set your priorities incorrectly, and you are not likely to be successful.
The strategy with this influence is to flow through it without any particular set plan of action nor any special objective. Simply treat this time as a learning experience. If a relationship doesn't work out, ask yourself why you got into it in the first place. If you attract dishonest people or if your dishonesty has brought you trouble, ask yourself what purpose this served in your life. Often you will discover that you were trying to protect something that really wasn't worth protecting.
Valid during many months: At this time in your life your relationships with others are likely to become confused and difficult. You may encounter persons who try to dissuade you from a course of action that you have been committed to for years, with the result that you become confused about the direction of your life. The other person's intentions in this may be either good or bad.
This is not a good time to become involved in any kind of contractual or business negotiations. Even if the people whom you are dealing with are completely honest - and with this influence they may very well be dishonest - you will find it difficult to think clearly about your own goals and objectives in the negotiations. As a result you will not get what you want from the procedure.
On the metaphysical plane there is a lesson to be learned from this influence. The less involved your ego is in a situation, the more freedom you will have to do what you want. By bringing about a loss, this influence often shows us that our attachment to material objects or to certain personal relationships has prevented us from being free. So it is not usually the influence itself that causes losses or confusion, but your ego's relentless drive to maintain the game it is playing. And this may be happening at your expense, when viewed from a higher perspective. When your ego takes over in this way, you set your priorities incorrectly, and you are not likely to be successful.
The strategy with this influence is to flow through it without any particular set plan of action nor any special objective. Simply treat this time as a learning experience. If a relationship doesn't work out, ask yourself why you got into it in the first place. If you attract dishonest people or if your dishonesty has brought you trouble, ask yourself what purpose this served in your life. Often you will discover that you were trying to protect something that really wasn't worth protecting.
This is all very true. Now how can I take no action for a YEAR while I´m expected to take almost any job offer they can find for me? Good question JD ;))
Saturday, January 22, 2011
MY SON
My Son told me tonight that when I will be unemployed I´ll still get a warm meal once a day... I was so touched... God bless his soul :)
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
A DIFFICULT TASK - lõpeb veebruari alguses
A difficult task ***
Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Square Ascendant, ,
activity period from middle of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Square Ascendant, ,
activity period from middle of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
Sunday, December 26, 2010
kuni maailma lõpuni
Neptune square Ascendant: Ego losses
End of March 2010 until end of January 2012: At this time in your life your relationships with others are likely to become confused and difficult. You may encounter persons who try to dissuade you from a course of action that you have been committed to for years, with the result that you become confused about the direction of your life. The other person's intentions in this may be either good or bad.
This is not a good time to become involved in any kind of contractual or business negotiations. Even if the people whom you are dealing with are completely honest - and with this influence they may very well be dishonest - you will find it difficult to think clearly about your own goals and objectives in the negotiations. As a result you will not get what you want from the procedure.
On the metaphysical plane there is a lesson to be learned from this influence. The less involved your ego is in a situation, the more freedom you will have to do what you want. By bringing about a loss, this influence often shows us that our attachment to material objects or to certain personal relationships has prevented us from being free. So it is not usually the influence itself that causes losses or confusion, but your ego's relentless drive to maintain the game it is playing. And this may be happening at your expense, when viewed from a higher perspective. When your ego takes over in this way, you set your priorities incorrectly, and you are not likely to be successful.
The strategy with this influence is to flow through it without any particular set plan of action nor any special objective. Simply treat this time as a learning experience. If a relationship doesn't work out, ask yourself why you got into it in the first place. If you attract dishonest people or if your dishonesty has brought you trouble, ask yourself what purpose this served in your life. Often you will discover that you were trying to protect something that really wasn't worth protecting.
Uranus trine Ascendant: Transient relationships
Beginning of April 2010 until beginning of March 2011: This is a time of increased freedom in and through your personal relationships. You are able to express yourself to others in ways that have never before been possible for you. This may take the form of a new interest or hobby or a new field of study. You may be attracted to technical and scientific subjects, as well as to occult studies such as astrology.
You respond much more quickly to people around you now and generally give the impression of being more alive and willing to challenge life, and you are. You may also seem somewhat impulsive and perhaps a bit nervous, but most people will not find you upsetting.
Sudden new contacts with others may provide opportunities to branch out and do things that you have never done before. You may have a chance to travel, for example, or to take up some completely new activity. Your old way of life no longer interests you, and if someone tries to convince you to keep to your old ways, you just get bored.
New relationships may begin now that challenge you creatively, but they may not last longer than this influence, so it is well not to make any permanent commitment until later. Even though the relationships may be transient, they will have a liberating effect upon you and increase your capacity to experience life. Often the other person will act as a "guru," that is, he or she will open up spiritual dimensions that you have never experienced before. However, do not expect this person to come in standard guru clothing. It could be anyone, and very often he or she will not look at all like the conventional notion of a spiritual teacher. Enlightenment takes as many forms as there are teachers and students.
Saturn trine Saturn: Inner stability
End of October 2010 until end of July 2011: At this time you can incorporate into yourself the fruits of previous successes, look them over and appreciate them for what they were. The key idea is that you are in a position to understand your life and therefore better able to be in conscious control of it. This is not merely an intellectual understanding, it is born of experience. You have lived through certain things, and now you can proceed on the basis of that understanding.
Your business or professional life will run smoothly at this time. Employers and superiors appreciate your calm, controlled way of handling your work, and they can see the results of your past experience. Relationships, which reflect what you are, are also more stable at this time because of your own inner stability.
Your outlook on life has also reached a point of equilibrium. You have a good understanding of how you look at life, and it works well enough that you may not question it very much. The problem is that this is not a time of testing, so you don't know how well your ideas will stand up to future crisis. You only know how well they withstood past tests. But the future is always different, and what happens in the future depends upon what is true at that time. Therefore you must keep your mind open and flexible. You only know what you know, and that is not everything. Continue to examine yourself and see what could be improved. Even if your life is satisfactory now, it may not always be.
Saturn opposition Mars: The middle way
Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent-up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Pluto trine Pluto: Up to you
Beginning of February 2011 until beginning of December 2012: This is a period of stability, in which very deep and perseverant energies lend themselves to you. Whether you make use of them or not is completely up to you. However, if you do decide to use them, there will be potential for inner growth. From this position you can gain deep insights into the functioning of your psyche which might have shocked you at other times.
You get more interested into the deep questions about change and metamorphosis, death, birth and regeneration. You will decline any explanation that doesn't truly touch the heart of the matter. However, you could show this very attitude also towards less profound issues.
Jupiter conjunction IC: Your inward needs
10 February 2011 until 19 February 2011: This is a time for expansion and growth in your innermost personal life, a time when you will seek security at home and with your immediate family. It may be necessary to reexamine your past life to find out what it can teach you about yourself. But this should not be a source of anxiety. In fact, you should feel quite good about what you learn at this time. Your parents may be able to assist you considerably in this process.
The symbolism of this influence is that you incorporate more and more of the outer world into your innermost life. On the material level, you may buy a larger, more elegant or more spacious home. Certainly it would be a good expression of this symbolism to improve your existing home and make it more comfortable.
At this time you should do everything to ensure that your personal life is as comfortable and secure as possible. You need to have a feeling of inner peace and security in order to continue to move out in the world. In fact you should not think so much about outward success now as about the more personal and inward needs that we have discussed here. And you should realize that your real need now is not land or a larger home, but a feeling of strength and inner growth.
This is the time to tie up any loose ends in your personal life, straighten out any relationships that are not working well, any leftovers from your past life that are still affecting the present adversely. To do this you may have to speak to others very openly about yourself and your innermost thoughts.
So this is a good time to settle and put down roots. The feeling of belonging to a place and a group of people is very important to you now. You don't have to do this in a way that limits your freedom of movement, and during this time it is very unlikely that you will do so. But everyone needs a solid home base so that they can feel at peace in their other activities. If you don't make an effort to construct such a base now, you will have difficulty later when your principal concerns are turning elsewhere.
Short Report - Forecast December 2010 to May 2011for Kristin Tehvan (female)
born on 5 May 1962 local time 10:45 pm
in Tallinn, EE U.T. 19:45
24e45, 59n25 sid. time 12:16:47
Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motion
Sun Taurus 14°49'19 in house 5 direct
Moon Gemini 6°46'18 in house 7 direct
Mercury Gemini 4°07'39 in house 7 direct
Venus Gemini 9°03'37 in house 7 direct
Mars Aries 12°26'01 in house 4 direct
Jupiter Pisces 7°48'20 in house 3 direct
Saturn Aquarius 11°11'12 in house 2 direct
Uranus Leo 26°23'41 in house 9 stationary (D)
Neptune Scorpio 12°03'02 in house 11 retrograde
Pluto Virgo 7°34'02 in house 9 retrograde
True Node Leo 13°09'49 in house 8 retrograde
House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Scorpio 28°42'56
2nd House Capricorn 2°33'02
3rd House Aquarius 23°50'18
Imum Coeli Aries 4°34'19
5th House Aries 29°39'05
6th House Taurus 16°18'09
Descendant Taurus 28°42'56
8th House Cancer 2°33'02
9th House Leo 23°50'18
Medium Coeli Libra 4°34'19
11th House Libra 29°39'05
12th House Scorpio 16°18'09
TransitsNeptune square Ascendant End of March 2010 until end of January 2012
Uranus trine Ascendant Beginning of April 2010 until beginning of March 2011
Saturn trine Saturn End of October 2010 until end of July 2011
Saturn opposition Mars Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011
Pluto trine Pluto Beginning of February 2011 until beginning of December 2012
Jupiter conjunction IC
End of March 2010 until end of January 2012: At this time in your life your relationships with others are likely to become confused and difficult. You may encounter persons who try to dissuade you from a course of action that you have been committed to for years, with the result that you become confused about the direction of your life. The other person's intentions in this may be either good or bad.
This is not a good time to become involved in any kind of contractual or business negotiations. Even if the people whom you are dealing with are completely honest - and with this influence they may very well be dishonest - you will find it difficult to think clearly about your own goals and objectives in the negotiations. As a result you will not get what you want from the procedure.
On the metaphysical plane there is a lesson to be learned from this influence. The less involved your ego is in a situation, the more freedom you will have to do what you want. By bringing about a loss, this influence often shows us that our attachment to material objects or to certain personal relationships has prevented us from being free. So it is not usually the influence itself that causes losses or confusion, but your ego's relentless drive to maintain the game it is playing. And this may be happening at your expense, when viewed from a higher perspective. When your ego takes over in this way, you set your priorities incorrectly, and you are not likely to be successful.
The strategy with this influence is to flow through it without any particular set plan of action nor any special objective. Simply treat this time as a learning experience. If a relationship doesn't work out, ask yourself why you got into it in the first place. If you attract dishonest people or if your dishonesty has brought you trouble, ask yourself what purpose this served in your life. Often you will discover that you were trying to protect something that really wasn't worth protecting.
Uranus trine Ascendant: Transient relationships
Beginning of April 2010 until beginning of March 2011: This is a time of increased freedom in and through your personal relationships. You are able to express yourself to others in ways that have never before been possible for you. This may take the form of a new interest or hobby or a new field of study. You may be attracted to technical and scientific subjects, as well as to occult studies such as astrology.
You respond much more quickly to people around you now and generally give the impression of being more alive and willing to challenge life, and you are. You may also seem somewhat impulsive and perhaps a bit nervous, but most people will not find you upsetting.
Sudden new contacts with others may provide opportunities to branch out and do things that you have never done before. You may have a chance to travel, for example, or to take up some completely new activity. Your old way of life no longer interests you, and if someone tries to convince you to keep to your old ways, you just get bored.
New relationships may begin now that challenge you creatively, but they may not last longer than this influence, so it is well not to make any permanent commitment until later. Even though the relationships may be transient, they will have a liberating effect upon you and increase your capacity to experience life. Often the other person will act as a "guru," that is, he or she will open up spiritual dimensions that you have never experienced before. However, do not expect this person to come in standard guru clothing. It could be anyone, and very often he or she will not look at all like the conventional notion of a spiritual teacher. Enlightenment takes as many forms as there are teachers and students.
Saturn trine Saturn: Inner stability
End of October 2010 until end of July 2011: At this time you can incorporate into yourself the fruits of previous successes, look them over and appreciate them for what they were. The key idea is that you are in a position to understand your life and therefore better able to be in conscious control of it. This is not merely an intellectual understanding, it is born of experience. You have lived through certain things, and now you can proceed on the basis of that understanding.
Your business or professional life will run smoothly at this time. Employers and superiors appreciate your calm, controlled way of handling your work, and they can see the results of your past experience. Relationships, which reflect what you are, are also more stable at this time because of your own inner stability.
Your outlook on life has also reached a point of equilibrium. You have a good understanding of how you look at life, and it works well enough that you may not question it very much. The problem is that this is not a time of testing, so you don't know how well your ideas will stand up to future crisis. You only know how well they withstood past tests. But the future is always different, and what happens in the future depends upon what is true at that time. Therefore you must keep your mind open and flexible. You only know what you know, and that is not everything. Continue to examine yourself and see what could be improved. Even if your life is satisfactory now, it may not always be.
Saturn opposition Mars: The middle way
Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent-up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Pluto trine Pluto: Up to you
Beginning of February 2011 until beginning of December 2012: This is a period of stability, in which very deep and perseverant energies lend themselves to you. Whether you make use of them or not is completely up to you. However, if you do decide to use them, there will be potential for inner growth. From this position you can gain deep insights into the functioning of your psyche which might have shocked you at other times.
You get more interested into the deep questions about change and metamorphosis, death, birth and regeneration. You will decline any explanation that doesn't truly touch the heart of the matter. However, you could show this very attitude also towards less profound issues.
Jupiter conjunction IC: Your inward needs
10 February 2011 until 19 February 2011: This is a time for expansion and growth in your innermost personal life, a time when you will seek security at home and with your immediate family. It may be necessary to reexamine your past life to find out what it can teach you about yourself. But this should not be a source of anxiety. In fact, you should feel quite good about what you learn at this time. Your parents may be able to assist you considerably in this process.
The symbolism of this influence is that you incorporate more and more of the outer world into your innermost life. On the material level, you may buy a larger, more elegant or more spacious home. Certainly it would be a good expression of this symbolism to improve your existing home and make it more comfortable.
At this time you should do everything to ensure that your personal life is as comfortable and secure as possible. You need to have a feeling of inner peace and security in order to continue to move out in the world. In fact you should not think so much about outward success now as about the more personal and inward needs that we have discussed here. And you should realize that your real need now is not land or a larger home, but a feeling of strength and inner growth.
This is the time to tie up any loose ends in your personal life, straighten out any relationships that are not working well, any leftovers from your past life that are still affecting the present adversely. To do this you may have to speak to others very openly about yourself and your innermost thoughts.
So this is a good time to settle and put down roots. The feeling of belonging to a place and a group of people is very important to you now. You don't have to do this in a way that limits your freedom of movement, and during this time it is very unlikely that you will do so. But everyone needs a solid home base so that they can feel at peace in their other activities. If you don't make an effort to construct such a base now, you will have difficulty later when your principal concerns are turning elsewhere.
Short Report - Forecast December 2010 to May 2011for Kristin Tehvan (female)
born on 5 May 1962 local time 10:45 pm
in Tallinn, EE U.T. 19:45
24e45, 59n25 sid. time 12:16:47
Planetary positionsplanet sign degree motion
Sun Taurus 14°49'19 in house 5 direct
Moon Gemini 6°46'18 in house 7 direct
Mercury Gemini 4°07'39 in house 7 direct
Venus Gemini 9°03'37 in house 7 direct
Mars Aries 12°26'01 in house 4 direct
Jupiter Pisces 7°48'20 in house 3 direct
Saturn Aquarius 11°11'12 in house 2 direct
Uranus Leo 26°23'41 in house 9 stationary (D)
Neptune Scorpio 12°03'02 in house 11 retrograde
Pluto Virgo 7°34'02 in house 9 retrograde
True Node Leo 13°09'49 in house 8 retrograde
House positions (Placidus)Ascendant Scorpio 28°42'56
2nd House Capricorn 2°33'02
3rd House Aquarius 23°50'18
Imum Coeli Aries 4°34'19
5th House Aries 29°39'05
6th House Taurus 16°18'09
Descendant Taurus 28°42'56
8th House Cancer 2°33'02
9th House Leo 23°50'18
Medium Coeli Libra 4°34'19
11th House Libra 29°39'05
12th House Scorpio 16°18'09
TransitsNeptune square Ascendant End of March 2010 until end of January 2012
Uranus trine Ascendant Beginning of April 2010 until beginning of March 2011
Saturn trine Saturn End of October 2010 until end of July 2011
Saturn opposition Mars Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011
Pluto trine Pluto Beginning of February 2011 until beginning of December 2012
Jupiter conjunction IC
Saturday, December 25, 2010
INIMESED
... tulevad ja kaovad... Ka need, kes on alati olnud ja nagu ei saaks kunagi kaduda.
"Out, out, brief candle! Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage and then is heard no more: it is a tale told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing."
Macbeth
24. 10. 2010, pühapäev
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
23. psalm
| The LORD Is My Shepherd | |||||
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| 1 | The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. | ||||
| 2 | He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
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| 3 | He restoreth my soul:
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| 4 | Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
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| 5 | Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
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| 6 | Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
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Thursday, November 11, 2010
ÕNNEKS LÕPEB JAANUARIS
Out of your mind ***
Valid during many months: This influence represents an enormous revolution in your consciousness, as you are exposed to aspects of life that you never dreamed possible. These might include any of the following: the occult or metaphysics; astrology; magic; altered states of consciousness, perhaps through drugs or meditation; or groups whose ideas are extremely idealistic and radical.
What is actually happening is that tremendous new understandings are asserting themselves in your life with such force that they seem to upset all your past ways of thinking. However, this is only a problem of perspective. At this time you are in the middle of these changes and cannot see the relationship between your new consciousness and your old. But they are related, which you will come to understand as the immediate impact of this influence begins to pass.
This is a period of tremendous psychological insights and change, but not much stability. Therefore keep your situation fluid enough that you can make changes as necessary. Do not try to build permanent structures at this time, because you will have to change them again and again. It should be noted, however, that the primary effects of this influence occur at the psychological level.
Possibly you will respond to this influence with confusion, doubt and uncertainty. Let it be, and wait for the situation to settle down. Try to minimize the elements of your life that require you to make long-range commitments, because your changing consciousness will make it difficult to continue such a commitment. If old goals lose their meaning, that is what must be. Be patient, and new goals will enter your life that will better fit your new state of mind.
Others may think you have gone out of your mind because of what you do and see at this time, but do not be concerned. This revolution in ideas and consciousness is a fundamental part of your life, and it must be allowed to pursue its own course.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Neptune Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of March 2009 until end of January 2011
Valid during many months: This influence represents an enormous revolution in your consciousness, as you are exposed to aspects of life that you never dreamed possible. These might include any of the following: the occult or metaphysics; astrology; magic; altered states of consciousness, perhaps through drugs or meditation; or groups whose ideas are extremely idealistic and radical.
What is actually happening is that tremendous new understandings are asserting themselves in your life with such force that they seem to upset all your past ways of thinking. However, this is only a problem of perspective. At this time you are in the middle of these changes and cannot see the relationship between your new consciousness and your old. But they are related, which you will come to understand as the immediate impact of this influence begins to pass.
This is a period of tremendous psychological insights and change, but not much stability. Therefore keep your situation fluid enough that you can make changes as necessary. Do not try to build permanent structures at this time, because you will have to change them again and again. It should be noted, however, that the primary effects of this influence occur at the psychological level.
Possibly you will respond to this influence with confusion, doubt and uncertainty. Let it be, and wait for the situation to settle down. Try to minimize the elements of your life that require you to make long-range commitments, because your changing consciousness will make it difficult to continue such a commitment. If old goals lose their meaning, that is what must be. Be patient, and new goals will enter your life that will better fit your new state of mind.
Others may think you have gone out of your mind because of what you do and see at this time, but do not be concerned. This revolution in ideas and consciousness is a fundamental part of your life, and it must be allowed to pursue its own course.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Neptune Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of March 2009 until end of January 2011
JÄRGMISE AASTA AUGUSTINI
The middle way ***
Valid during many months: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent- up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Opposition Mars, ,
activity period from end of October 2010 until middle of August 2011
Valid during many months: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent- up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Opposition Mars, ,
activity period from end of October 2010 until middle of August 2011
KUNI DETS. LÕPUNI
Soap bubbles ***
Valid during many months: You will now have to reckon with a critical time, during which some of your future visions turn out to be no more than soap bubbles. A series of disturbing events might show you that you are not as free as you might have believed. Nobody can avoid getting swept up in the daily life of the collective. We are all subject to the continuous bombardment of distressing news, and a powerful advertizing industry strongly influences our buying habits. Your increasing sensitivity makes you more aware of the influence these things have on your private life, and you may feel increasingly under threat from such powerful external forces. This realization makes some people very uneasy. Many influences of their lives -whether private or public - can suddenly seem unreal or hypocritical. They start to question whose truth they are actually living, leading them to seek better ways of expressing their own authentic individuality. Many feel the need to get rid of all obligations and restrictions in one fell swoop.
Level-headedness and consideration for others are probably not your strongest points at the moment, which could lead others to accuse you of behaving like a stroppy adolescent. You benefit most from this influence if you can resist the temptation to be overcritical of the circumstances in your life, which will help you to be more tolerant of your own behavior. Do not allow yourself to become embroiled in an ill-tempered feud with those who might unconsciously resent the fact that you are not functioning "normally". This is also a good time to work together with your partner to make constructive changes in your relationship which will benefit both of you.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of April 2009 until end of December 2010
Valid during many months: You will now have to reckon with a critical time, during which some of your future visions turn out to be no more than soap bubbles. A series of disturbing events might show you that you are not as free as you might have believed. Nobody can avoid getting swept up in the daily life of the collective. We are all subject to the continuous bombardment of distressing news, and a powerful advertizing industry strongly influences our buying habits. Your increasing sensitivity makes you more aware of the influence these things have on your private life, and you may feel increasingly under threat from such powerful external forces. This realization makes some people very uneasy. Many influences of their lives -whether private or public - can suddenly seem unreal or hypocritical. They start to question whose truth they are actually living, leading them to seek better ways of expressing their own authentic individuality. Many feel the need to get rid of all obligations and restrictions in one fell swoop.
Level-headedness and consideration for others are probably not your strongest points at the moment, which could lead others to accuse you of behaving like a stroppy adolescent. You benefit most from this influence if you can resist the temptation to be overcritical of the circumstances in your life, which will help you to be more tolerant of your own behavior. Do not allow yourself to become embroiled in an ill-tempered feud with those who might unconsciously resent the fact that you are not functioning "normally". This is also a good time to work together with your partner to make constructive changes in your relationship which will benefit both of you.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of April 2009 until end of December 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
25 things that are extremely important in my life
1) Ground
2) Air
3) Water
4) Sky
5) Sun
6) Fire
7) Rain
8) Grass
9) Trees
10) Birds and animals
11) Water bodies
12) Warmth
13) Roof over me
14) Walls
15) Bed
16) Privacy
17) Something to eat
18) Something to wear
19) Cigarettes
20) Coffee
21) Alcohol
22) My kids living longer than I
23) My grandkids living longer than I
24) Kids and grandkids being happy
25) Love
2) Air
3) Water
4) Sky
5) Sun
6) Fire
7) Rain
8) Grass
9) Trees
10) Birds and animals
11) Water bodies
12) Warmth
13) Roof over me
14) Walls
15) Bed
16) Privacy
17) Something to eat
18) Something to wear
19) Cigarettes
20) Coffee
21) Alcohol
22) My kids living longer than I
23) My grandkids living longer than I
24) Kids and grandkids being happy
25) Love
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
TARKUSETERA
Roughly during the first half of our lives we are trying to become something, during the other half we are trying to get rid of it. Because this "something" is way too narrow.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
No näed - here we go again! Kõik enam-vähem ühel ajal ka ;))
Saturn opposition Mars: The middle way
Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent-up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Beginning of November 2010 until mid August 2011: This can be an extremely challenging period, because you feel that everything you try to do is blocked by circumstances or opposed by others. You may feel angry, but you have no obvious outlet for your anger, so you are left boiling over inside and seething with frustration. And there is no doubt that your actions are very closely circumscribed at this time. People who are important in directing your life - parents, employers, officials - may be a serious source of trouble at this time.
You may feel tempted to lash out against the forces that seem to be conspiring against you, but this is probably not a good idea. They will probably prove too strong for you. Instead of rebelling and fighting, it would be better to wait and in the meantime find some outlet for your pent-up energy. Hard work, physical activity, and concentrated effort will help dispel the energy build-up that may accompany this influence. However, take reasonable precautions in whatever you do along these lines.
It is not a good idea simply to hold in your feelings, even though it seems futile to let them out. The stored-up energy within you provokes responses from others and from your environment in very subtle ways, which can lead to even greater problems. You can conceivably become the victim of your own violent feelings, and this can happen in very subtle, unconscious ways. So you have to find the middle road between lashing out violently and holding all your anger in.
Ohhh, ei jõua ära oodata!!!
Saturn trine Saturn: Inner stability
End of October 2010 until end of July 2011: At this time you can incorporate into yourself the fruits of previous successes, look them over and appreciate them for what they were. The key idea is that you are in a position to understand your life and therefore better able to be in conscious control of it. This is not merely an intellectual understanding, it is born of experience. You have lived through certain things, and now you can proceed on the basis of that understanding.
Your business or professional life will run smoothly at this time. Employers and superiors appreciate your calm, controlled way of handling your work, and they can see the results of your past experience. Relationships, which reflect what you are, are also more stable at this time because of your own inner stability.
Your outlook on life has also reached a point of equilibrium. You have a good understanding of how you look at life, and it works well enough that you may not question it very much. The problem is that this is not a time of testing, so you don't know how well your ideas will stand up to future crisis. You only know how well they withstood past tests. But the future is always different, and what happens in the future depends upon what is true at that time. Therefore you must keep your mind open and flexible. You only know what you know, and that is not everything. Continue to examine yourself and see what could be improved. Even if your life is satisfactory now, it may not always be.
End of October 2010 until end of July 2011: At this time you can incorporate into yourself the fruits of previous successes, look them over and appreciate them for what they were. The key idea is that you are in a position to understand your life and therefore better able to be in conscious control of it. This is not merely an intellectual understanding, it is born of experience. You have lived through certain things, and now you can proceed on the basis of that understanding.
Your business or professional life will run smoothly at this time. Employers and superiors appreciate your calm, controlled way of handling your work, and they can see the results of your past experience. Relationships, which reflect what you are, are also more stable at this time because of your own inner stability.
Your outlook on life has also reached a point of equilibrium. You have a good understanding of how you look at life, and it works well enough that you may not question it very much. The problem is that this is not a time of testing, so you don't know how well your ideas will stand up to future crisis. You only know how well they withstood past tests. But the future is always different, and what happens in the future depends upon what is true at that time. Therefore you must keep your mind open and flexible. You only know what you know, and that is not everything. Continue to examine yourself and see what could be improved. Even if your life is satisfactory now, it may not always be.
NONIINONIINONIIIIIIII - mida veel`??
A difficult task
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Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):Chiron Square Ascendant, , activity period from beginning of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
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Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):Chiron Square Ascendant, , activity period from beginning of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
THE FLOW OF LIFE
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." - Lao Tzu
"We are all visitors to this time, this place. We are just passing through. Our purpose here is to observe, to learn, to grow, to love... And then we return home." - Australian Aboriginal Proverb
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
MÄRTS 2010 - VEEBR. 2011
SHIT SHIT SHIT! I LOVE HARMONIOUS LIFE!!!
A difficult task
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Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):Chiron Square Ascendant, , activity period from beginning of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
A difficult task
***
Valid during many months: This very difficult influence could indicate a crisis triggered by a conflict between your own interests and those of people around you. You may be bottling up feelings of rage and resentment, feeling that a harmonious everyday life is only achievable by making lazy compromises. Sparks may fly in personal relationships, and the atmosphere at work may be generally poor.
It could be difficult, if not impossible, to find a compromise between your own needs and the demands of others. Under this influence you are aware that certain ways of behavior that are necessary for getting along with others are often incompatible with your own feelings. This recognition will give rise to strong and conflicting emotions, but you should nevertheless be careful not to sacrifice your own unique personality for the sake of a peaceful and quiet life, which you will be neither able nor willing to maintain in the long run.
Instead try allowing the angry and resentful child inside you to let off steam. You are more likely to benefit from this aspect if you can understand that your inner turbulence is not due to friends or colleagues, but is a healthy and vital expression of long-repressed emotion that has remained bottled up since your childhood. You are now required to pay more attention to some of the more fundamental aspects of your personality, and to drop the masks you have taken to wearing for the sake of a harmonious life.
Transit selected for today (by user):Chiron Square Ascendant, , activity period from beginning of March 2010 until beginning of February 2011
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Pluto kvadr. MC, jaan.2010 - nov.2011
Out of proportion ***
Valid during many months: At this time you have to be careful not to let your actions stir up resistance from others. Try to avoid acting in ways that say that you are out to change people's lives and habits and that you will not compromise at all. Without even being aware of it, you may become obsessed by achieving certain objectives with an energy out of all proportion to the significance of your goal. This is what scares people and may make them work against you.
On the other hand you may experience this kind of energy from others. Persons or circumstances may attempt to change you against your will. To a certain extent this is a positive encounter, because it forces you to become very conscious of what you are doing so that you can defend yourself against the pressures for change. And indeed it is inevitable that you will change, but the changes can be for the good, if you don't waste all your energies trying to fight them.
Your domestic life is particularly likely to change in some regard. Any tensions in your marital and family life will surface at this time, and you will have to do something about them. Do not hope that they will go away, because they won't. But you do have the opportunity to create a whole new relationship out of your present one, if your are willing to face the challenge. Sometimes these pressures for change are manifested externally. You may suddenly need repairs on your house, or appliances may suddenly break down, and as a result the physical health of either you or your family may suffer. This is also a sign that changes are needed, so you should look very intensely for the cause of the difficulty. Perhaps you need to move. Sometimes this influence coincides with a change of residence, which enables you to see what to do more easily because your new surroundings reveal previously hidden problems. You need not expect catastrophe with this influence by any means, but do not shrink from the challenge of change. Only in this way can you keep your life vigorous and challenging.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Pluto Square Med.Coeli, ,
activity period from beginning of January 2010 until beginning of November 2011
Valid during many months: At this time you have to be careful not to let your actions stir up resistance from others. Try to avoid acting in ways that say that you are out to change people's lives and habits and that you will not compromise at all. Without even being aware of it, you may become obsessed by achieving certain objectives with an energy out of all proportion to the significance of your goal. This is what scares people and may make them work against you.
On the other hand you may experience this kind of energy from others. Persons or circumstances may attempt to change you against your will. To a certain extent this is a positive encounter, because it forces you to become very conscious of what you are doing so that you can defend yourself against the pressures for change. And indeed it is inevitable that you will change, but the changes can be for the good, if you don't waste all your energies trying to fight them.
Your domestic life is particularly likely to change in some regard. Any tensions in your marital and family life will surface at this time, and you will have to do something about them. Do not hope that they will go away, because they won't. But you do have the opportunity to create a whole new relationship out of your present one, if your are willing to face the challenge. Sometimes these pressures for change are manifested externally. You may suddenly need repairs on your house, or appliances may suddenly break down, and as a result the physical health of either you or your family may suffer. This is also a sign that changes are needed, so you should look very intensely for the cause of the difficulty. Perhaps you need to move. Sometimes this influence coincides with a change of residence, which enables you to see what to do more easily because your new surroundings reveal previously hidden problems. You need not expect catastrophe with this influence by any means, but do not shrink from the challenge of change. Only in this way can you keep your life vigorous and challenging.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Pluto Square Med.Coeli, ,
activity period from beginning of January 2010 until beginning of November 2011
Neptun opp. Uraaniga, märts 2009 - jaan.2011
Out of your mind ***
Valid during many months: This influence represents an enormous revolution in your consciousness, as you are exposed to aspects of life that you never dreamed possible. These might include any of the following: the occult or metaphysics; astrology; magic; altered states of consciousness, perhaps through drugs or meditation; or groups whose ideas are extremely idealistic and radical.
What is actually happening is that tremendous new understandings are asserting themselves in your life with such force that they seem to upset all your past ways of thinking. However, this is only a problem of perspective. At this time you are in the middle of these changes and cannot see the relationship between your new consciousness and your old. But they are related, which you will come to understand as the immediate impact of this influence begins to pass.
This is a period of tremendous psychological insights and change, but not much stability. Therefore keep your situation fluid enough that you can make changes as necessary. Do not try to build permanent structures at this time, because you will have to change them again and again. It should be noted, however, that the primary effects of this influence occur at the psychological level.
Possibly you will respond to this influence with confusion, doubt and uncertainty. Let it be, and wait for the situation to settle down. Try to minimize the elements of your life that require you to make long-range commitments, because your changing consciousness will make it difficult to continue such a commitment. If old goals lose their meaning, that is what must be. Be patient, and new goals will enter your life that will better fit your new state of mind.
Others may think you have gone out of your mind because of what you do and see at this time, but do not be concerned. This revolution in ideas and consciousness is a fundamental part of your life, and it must be allowed to pursue its own course.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Neptune Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of March 2009 until end of January 2011
Valid during many months: This influence represents an enormous revolution in your consciousness, as you are exposed to aspects of life that you never dreamed possible. These might include any of the following: the occult or metaphysics; astrology; magic; altered states of consciousness, perhaps through drugs or meditation; or groups whose ideas are extremely idealistic and radical.
What is actually happening is that tremendous new understandings are asserting themselves in your life with such force that they seem to upset all your past ways of thinking. However, this is only a problem of perspective. At this time you are in the middle of these changes and cannot see the relationship between your new consciousness and your old. But they are related, which you will come to understand as the immediate impact of this influence begins to pass.
This is a period of tremendous psychological insights and change, but not much stability. Therefore keep your situation fluid enough that you can make changes as necessary. Do not try to build permanent structures at this time, because you will have to change them again and again. It should be noted, however, that the primary effects of this influence occur at the psychological level.
Possibly you will respond to this influence with confusion, doubt and uncertainty. Let it be, and wait for the situation to settle down. Try to minimize the elements of your life that require you to make long-range commitments, because your changing consciousness will make it difficult to continue such a commitment. If old goals lose their meaning, that is what must be. Be patient, and new goals will enter your life that will better fit your new state of mind.
Others may think you have gone out of your mind because of what you do and see at this time, but do not be concerned. This revolution in ideas and consciousness is a fundamental part of your life, and it must be allowed to pursue its own course.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Neptune Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of March 2009 until end of January 2011
Chiron opp. Uraaniga, aprill 2009 - dets.2010
Soap bubbles ***
Valid during many months: You will now have to reckon with a critical time, during which some of your future visions turn out to be no more than soap bubbles. A series of disturbing events might show you that you are not as free as you might have believed. Nobody can avoid getting swept up in the daily life of the collective. We are all subject to the continuous bombardment of distressing news, and a powerful advertizing industry strongly influences our buying habits. Your increasing sensitivity makes you more aware of the influence these things have on your private life, and you may feel increasingly under threat from such powerful external forces. This realization makes some people very uneasy. Many influences of their lives -whether private or public - can suddenly seem unreal or hypocritical. They start to question whose truth they are actually living, leading them to seek better ways of expressing their own authentic individuality. Many feel the need to get rid of all obligations and restrictions in one fell swoop.
Level-headedness and consideration for others are probably not your strongest points at the moment, which could lead others to accuse you of behaving like a stroppy adolescent. You benefit most from this influence if you can resist the temptation to be overcritical of the circumstances in your life, which will help you to be more tolerant of your own behavior. Do not allow yourself to become embroiled in an ill-tempered feud with those who might unconsciously resent the fact that you are not functioning "normally". This is also a good time to work together with your partner to make constructive changes in your relationship which will benefit both of you.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of April 2009 until end of December 2010
Valid during many months: You will now have to reckon with a critical time, during which some of your future visions turn out to be no more than soap bubbles. A series of disturbing events might show you that you are not as free as you might have believed. Nobody can avoid getting swept up in the daily life of the collective. We are all subject to the continuous bombardment of distressing news, and a powerful advertizing industry strongly influences our buying habits. Your increasing sensitivity makes you more aware of the influence these things have on your private life, and you may feel increasingly under threat from such powerful external forces. This realization makes some people very uneasy. Many influences of their lives -whether private or public - can suddenly seem unreal or hypocritical. They start to question whose truth they are actually living, leading them to seek better ways of expressing their own authentic individuality. Many feel the need to get rid of all obligations and restrictions in one fell swoop.
Level-headedness and consideration for others are probably not your strongest points at the moment, which could lead others to accuse you of behaving like a stroppy adolescent. You benefit most from this influence if you can resist the temptation to be overcritical of the circumstances in your life, which will help you to be more tolerant of your own behavior. Do not allow yourself to become embroiled in an ill-tempered feud with those who might unconsciously resent the fact that you are not functioning "normally". This is also a good time to work together with your partner to make constructive changes in your relationship which will benefit both of you.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Chiron Opposition Uranus, ,
activity period from end of April 2009 until end of December 2010
Friday, December 11, 2009
UUED PIKAAJALISED KUNI SEPT. 2010
Mental discipline ***
Valid during many months: During this time your mind, point of view and styles of thinking and communicating have reached a point of stability. You are quite secure in them, for you know how and what you think about most things. This is not a time of change but of preparing to use your mind. Consequently it is an excellent time for any task requiring mental discipline and hard work, such as study, schooling or learning any new mental discipline. It is not a very good time for work requiring great inspiration, intuitive insight and creativity. You will get results through hard work and scholarly methods, not through "divinely" inspired insight.
This influence favors planning and organization of various aspects of your life. You have a definite sense of order in mind, which you can make manifest in your life. This is a good time to put your ideas into practice on the material level and to carry out long-standing plans. If you have planned a project, such as building up a new business or starting a new organization, this is a good time to do it.
With this influence there is a danger that you will let your ideas and opinions become too rigid. It is important that your ideas acquire definite form and stability at this time, because in the future they will be challenged very strongly. You must be reasonably definite and sure of yourself in order to withstand the challenges. But rigidity will only make those times worse, because your thinking will have to be flexible, no matter how certain you are now that you are right.
At this time you have an unusual ability to see every intricate piece of a whole, and your position on most matters is very clear. Consequently your critical ability is greater than usual, and you can see instantly what is wrong in any situation. Just don't let this degenerate into nit-picking.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Trine Mercury, ,
activity period from 3 December 2009 until beginning of September 2010
Peak opportunities ***
Valid during many months: This is the time when all your past preparations for the future will have their most important consequences. This influence represents an important life pinnacle for you, but it also entails very important duties and responsibilities.
About fourteen years ago, you began a new cycle of personal development. During this entire period you have laid the framework for what will happen now.
As you approach this culmination of years of effort and ambition, it is very important to review just what you have been trying to achieve and how you have been going about it. The more solidly you have laid the foundations for your success, the greater your capability for achievement at this time. But if you have taken shortcuts anywhere or broken the rules of the game you are playing, you will have trouble in those areas of your life.
The areas of your life that you have prepared carefully will become tremendously productive now. Your opportunities are at a peak for achievement and for additional responsibility and power in your work and in your personal life. People will look to you for leadership, whether you want it or not.
If your preparation for this period of your life has been sloppy or full of shortcuts, or if you try to avoid its increased responsibilities, you run the risk of losing everything, even in the areas where you have prepared well and have taken responsibility.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Conjunction Med.Coeli, ,
activity period from 9 December 2009 until middle of September 2010
Transformation *
Valid during many months: Basically your ego drives will create a confrontation with something, which will force a transformation of some kind in your life. For example, you may encounter someone who has a powerful effect upon you and causes you to change. This may happen through a conflict with this person, or he or she may gain influence over you and thereby affect you strongly. In a marriage or love relationship, the two of you may disagree strongly on the management of jointly held resources. It is also quite likely that the two of you will use your joint resources, particularly money, rather foolishly and wastefully. The sum total of all of your experiences at this time will lead to either great or small ways of transforming the ways in which you assert yourself in the world.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Mars in the 8th House, 8,
activity period from end of August 2009 until end of May 2010
Valid during many months: During this time your mind, point of view and styles of thinking and communicating have reached a point of stability. You are quite secure in them, for you know how and what you think about most things. This is not a time of change but of preparing to use your mind. Consequently it is an excellent time for any task requiring mental discipline and hard work, such as study, schooling or learning any new mental discipline. It is not a very good time for work requiring great inspiration, intuitive insight and creativity. You will get results through hard work and scholarly methods, not through "divinely" inspired insight.
This influence favors planning and organization of various aspects of your life. You have a definite sense of order in mind, which you can make manifest in your life. This is a good time to put your ideas into practice on the material level and to carry out long-standing plans. If you have planned a project, such as building up a new business or starting a new organization, this is a good time to do it.
With this influence there is a danger that you will let your ideas and opinions become too rigid. It is important that your ideas acquire definite form and stability at this time, because in the future they will be challenged very strongly. You must be reasonably definite and sure of yourself in order to withstand the challenges. But rigidity will only make those times worse, because your thinking will have to be flexible, no matter how certain you are now that you are right.
At this time you have an unusual ability to see every intricate piece of a whole, and your position on most matters is very clear. Consequently your critical ability is greater than usual, and you can see instantly what is wrong in any situation. Just don't let this degenerate into nit-picking.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Trine Mercury, ,
activity period from 3 December 2009 until beginning of September 2010
Peak opportunities ***
Valid during many months: This is the time when all your past preparations for the future will have their most important consequences. This influence represents an important life pinnacle for you, but it also entails very important duties and responsibilities.
About fourteen years ago, you began a new cycle of personal development. During this entire period you have laid the framework for what will happen now.
As you approach this culmination of years of effort and ambition, it is very important to review just what you have been trying to achieve and how you have been going about it. The more solidly you have laid the foundations for your success, the greater your capability for achievement at this time. But if you have taken shortcuts anywhere or broken the rules of the game you are playing, you will have trouble in those areas of your life.
The areas of your life that you have prepared carefully will become tremendously productive now. Your opportunities are at a peak for achievement and for additional responsibility and power in your work and in your personal life. People will look to you for leadership, whether you want it or not.
If your preparation for this period of your life has been sloppy or full of shortcuts, or if you try to avoid its increased responsibilities, you run the risk of losing everything, even in the areas where you have prepared well and have taken responsibility.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Saturn Conjunction Med.Coeli, ,
activity period from 9 December 2009 until middle of September 2010
Transformation *
Valid during many months: Basically your ego drives will create a confrontation with something, which will force a transformation of some kind in your life. For example, you may encounter someone who has a powerful effect upon you and causes you to change. This may happen through a conflict with this person, or he or she may gain influence over you and thereby affect you strongly. In a marriage or love relationship, the two of you may disagree strongly on the management of jointly held resources. It is also quite likely that the two of you will use your joint resources, particularly money, rather foolishly and wastefully. The sum total of all of your experiences at this time will lead to either great or small ways of transforming the ways in which you assert yourself in the world.
Transit selected for today (by user):
Mars in the 8th House, 8,
activity period from end of August 2009 until end of May 2010
Friday, November 6, 2009
MARSI * VEENUSEGA : 3. nov 2009 - apr. lõpp 2010
| Ample opportunities | |
Valid during many months: This influence arouses your sexual drives and makes you seek a physical relationship with another person, if you do not already have one. It favors an existing relationship, for both of you will be able to give and receive from each other and thereby  gain gratification through the relationship. Entertainment and fun are two key themes of this time, which favors get-togethers and parties. You will get the greatest personal satisfaction from associating with others and having a good time. You will enjoy any activity much more if you can share it with others, for this is a very gregarious influence. This is a good time for artistic activity, as well as for getting together with others for artistic purposes. This influence should present you with ample opportunities to fulfill both needs. | |
| The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today: Mars Sextile Venus,    , exact at 10:57  activity period from 3 November 2009 until end of April 2010 | |
Thursday, October 15, 2009
POLEGI PEALKIRJA JÄLLE
Lapselaps on väga salapärane olevus. Samas võiks kergesti ja kõhklemata ta eest oma elu ära anda :)
Sunday, October 4, 2009
PEALKIRJATU
Profession and social standing
Valid during several weeks: This is a time when you should turn your attention to the most outward aspects of your life - your career, your role in the larger society and your standing and reputation within the community. You should also take this time to examine your life as a whole and see if you are going in the direction you want and making adequate progress in your life. This transit is future oriented rather than past oriented. You may have to deal with elements of your past, but only to make corrections so that you can plan more intelligently for the future. The only real danger of this transit is that if you have done something wrong or in a slipshod fashion it may be exposed now and trip you up in unpleasant ways. It would be a very good idea to look over your life and correct any situations that might give you problems in this way.
The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:Sun in the 10th House, 10, activity period from 27 September 2009 until end of October 2009
Just täpselt! Naljakas, kuidas astroloogia ikkagi näib toimivat. Mis puudutab oma elu suuna eksamineerimist, siis seda ma just teengi ja imestan pidevalt, kuidas ma kuidagi ei jõu ühessegi suunda, kuhu olen tahtnud jõuda. Ma tean, miks. Mitmesse suunda samaaegselt ei saa ju minna, samas võtab püüdlemine kõvasti energiat. Segadus võtab samuti hullusti energiat. Mul on umbes 5 erinevat suunda ja ma muudkui heitlen nende vahel. Samas, ma vähemalt üritan püsida ühes üldises suunas ja see on enda paremaks muutmine. Vahel on ka tagasilööke ja langusi ja vaikuseperioode, aga ma saan sellest üle.
Valid during several weeks: This is a time when you should turn your attention to the most outward aspects of your life - your career, your role in the larger society and your standing and reputation within the community. You should also take this time to examine your life as a whole and see if you are going in the direction you want and making adequate progress in your life. This transit is future oriented rather than past oriented. You may have to deal with elements of your past, but only to make corrections so that you can plan more intelligently for the future. The only real danger of this transit is that if you have done something wrong or in a slipshod fashion it may be exposed now and trip you up in unpleasant ways. It would be a very good idea to look over your life and correct any situations that might give you problems in this way.
The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:Sun in the 10th House, 10, activity period from 27 September 2009 until end of October 2009
Just täpselt! Naljakas, kuidas astroloogia ikkagi näib toimivat. Mis puudutab oma elu suuna eksamineerimist, siis seda ma just teengi ja imestan pidevalt, kuidas ma kuidagi ei jõu ühessegi suunda, kuhu olen tahtnud jõuda. Ma tean, miks. Mitmesse suunda samaaegselt ei saa ju minna, samas võtab püüdlemine kõvasti energiat. Segadus võtab samuti hullusti energiat. Mul on umbes 5 erinevat suunda ja ma muudkui heitlen nende vahel. Samas, ma vähemalt üritan püsida ühes üldises suunas ja see on enda paremaks muutmine. Vahel on ka tagasilööke ja langusi ja vaikuseperioode, aga ma saan sellest üle.
KRISTIN
Kristin possesses a clear, strong and objective mind, and is on her way toward developing into a person who will always favour reason over chaos and harmony over emotional turmoil. Mental acumen is apparent in her rapid grasp of concepts, her obvious pleasure in communicating [...]
[..] Kristin also has a profound sense of what is fair and right, and will not hesitate to make her views and feelings known if she senses injustice taking place around her. She might organise other children to challenge the class bully, or might protest to the teacher about [...]
[..] She would benefit from early exposure to beauty in the form of nature and the arts, especially painting and ballet. Even if she is not old enough to absorb the intellectual content of such things she will readily respond to their beauty. Coarseness in surroundings or [...]
[..] She may also allow others to invade her boundaries and take advantage of her good nature because she prefers any company to no company at all, and she may not be able to say "No" even when her well-being depends on it. Her lively and gifted mind needs time for reflection [...]
[..] But those who can make her laugh and can share her spirit of curiosity about life will always keep her affection. Above all, words matter to Kristin, and a good flow of communication however "frivolous" or "silly" is absolutely essential for her in any important relationship. Versatile, [...]
[..] This can provide her with a sound and healthy emotional base of self-knowledge, so that she can move out into life with genuine tolerance of and compassion for the whole spectrum of human emotion. Kristin is deeply attuned to her mother's hidden emotional life, and may sense [...]
From
The Child's HoroscopeFree Try-Out Editionfor Kristin Tehvan, born on 5 May 1962
Text by Liz Greene, Copyright © Astrodienst AG 2009
Sounds like me, ma olen ikkagi lapseks jäänud :P
[..] Kristin also has a profound sense of what is fair and right, and will not hesitate to make her views and feelings known if she senses injustice taking place around her. She might organise other children to challenge the class bully, or might protest to the teacher about [...]
[..] She would benefit from early exposure to beauty in the form of nature and the arts, especially painting and ballet. Even if she is not old enough to absorb the intellectual content of such things she will readily respond to their beauty. Coarseness in surroundings or [...]
[..] She may also allow others to invade her boundaries and take advantage of her good nature because she prefers any company to no company at all, and she may not be able to say "No" even when her well-being depends on it. Her lively and gifted mind needs time for reflection [...]
[..] But those who can make her laugh and can share her spirit of curiosity about life will always keep her affection. Above all, words matter to Kristin, and a good flow of communication however "frivolous" or "silly" is absolutely essential for her in any important relationship. Versatile, [...]
[..] This can provide her with a sound and healthy emotional base of self-knowledge, so that she can move out into life with genuine tolerance of and compassion for the whole spectrum of human emotion. Kristin is deeply attuned to her mother's hidden emotional life, and may sense [...]
From
The Child's HoroscopeFree Try-Out Editionfor Kristin Tehvan, born on 5 May 1962
Text by Liz Greene, Copyright © Astrodienst AG 2009
Sounds like me, ma olen ikkagi lapseks jäänud :P
Monday, September 14, 2009
SÕNN
Sõnn on aeglane inimene. Võtkem näiteks seismise pikas järjekorras. Enamik ei vaevukski, aga Sõnn seisab pool tundi ja lahkub näiteks siis, kui ainult kaks inimest enne teda on jäänud. Miks? Mine võta kinni. Lihtsalt viskas ära. Aega läks, aga ära viskas.
Sõnn on tõsine. Ta on nii tõsine, et mitte keegi ei suuda seda tõsiselt võtta. Arvatakse, et tal on lihtsalt hea huumorimeel.
Sõnn on äärmiselt kartlik. Vana jama tundub igatahes ohutum kui mingi uus värk, kasvõi hea värk. Sõnn veedab aastaid vanas jamas.
Sõnn on lojaalne. Tema lojaalsus paistab teistele ülepingutatud ja igav. See ongi tegelt igav.
Sõnn on pessimistlik. Ta ei usu, et rohi oleks tegelikult rohelisem isegi sealpool tara.
Sõnn on loomuldasa aus. Keegi ei usu ta valetamist.
Sõnn on sihikindel. Otsustamine võib võtta küll 5 ja pool aastat aega, aga kui otsus tehtud, ei kaldu ta enam kõrvale.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
I'M ALIVE!
I am in love with myself again!
Why took it so long? Is it really so that when you see the world as a bad place you can’t help but to see yourself as a bad creature? When life seems ugly and unfair you seem to yourself as a part of it, ugly and unfair also. But think of all the FEELINGS! Even the bad ones, even the worst ones, is it bad to be able to feel all that?! It doesn’t matter that I get more wrinkles every day or the old ones get deeper. You can say that I'm old or fat or whatever, it doesn't matter. I’m alive.
I*M A L I V E!!!
Why took it so long? Is it really so that when you see the world as a bad place you can’t help but to see yourself as a bad creature? When life seems ugly and unfair you seem to yourself as a part of it, ugly and unfair also. But think of all the FEELINGS! Even the bad ones, even the worst ones, is it bad to be able to feel all that?! It doesn’t matter that I get more wrinkles every day or the old ones get deeper. You can say that I'm old or fat or whatever, it doesn't matter. I’m alive.
I*M A L I V E!!!
Monday, August 24, 2009
50 QUESTIONS
50 Questions That Don't Really Tell You Anything About Who I Am...
Yesterday at 12:05pm
[0] Who was your last text from?A deaf man who I don’t know (yet)
[1] Where was your default pic taken?Default pic? I don’t understand. Last pic of me was taken at the airport on Thursday
[2] Your relationship status?a widow
[3] Where did you meet your crush?online
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?hmm… some have died
[5] What is your current mood?OK, benevolent… LOL[6] Whats your brother(s) names?no brothers
[7] Sister's names?no sisters
[8] Where do you wish you where (were) right now?in the mountains of Colorado
[9] Have a crazy side?Not sure, probably not, sure hope to stay normal for the rest of my life (and beyond LOL)
[10] Ever had a near death experience?I think so but how do I know for sure?
11 Ever farted on a date?No.
[12] Angry at anyone?Nope
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?He does LOL[14] When was the last time you cried?Yesterday morning
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?No, not anything, never.
[16] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?Random stuff, trying not to think, stop all inner monologues
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?My son
[18] What is your favorite song?Too many (Morning Has Broken by Cat Stevens? LOL)
[19] What are you doing right now?This.[
20] Do you trust anyone right now?I trust most people, why not?
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?Don’t remember
[22] Have you hugged someone in the past week?No, I rarely hug anyone
[23] How many people have you loved?What’s love? I love my kids so two for sure
[24] Describe your life in one word!Quiet
[25] Who/What are you thinking of right now?right now my mind went blank LOL
[26] What should you be doing right now?Nothing, I do what I want to do
[27] What are you listening to?Nothing, silence’s the best
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?Don’t remember… my daughter?
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?Yes. I’m a perfect mirror When someone I like is around I act much better
[31] What is your natural hair color?Dark chocolate brown
[32] Who was the last person to make you laughMy son (he always does)
[33] Who was the last person to make you mad?Hmm… don’t remember really. I don’t get mad often
[34] What pets do you have?A cat and fish (cat’s actually my son’s)
[35] Is your hair naturally curly or straight?Straight
[36] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?Nope[37] When did you loose your virginity?When I was 14. I was raped.
[38] Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?Nope
[39] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?Yes, all the time
[40] Plans for the weekend?It’s Sunday and no, no plans
[41] Are you happy with life right now?Yes[42] Are you currently jealous?Not really.
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?A ring and 3 earrings
[44] What are you doing Friday night?Whatever I want
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?Yup, but it was my own fault – I put it into hands of a careless person and he dropped it ;))
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?Hopefully not
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?Not really
[48] Last person you saw?My son this morning leaving for work
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?Until 2am because of the damned Farmville LOL
[50]How is your heart lately?Free
Yesterday at 12:05pm
[0] Who was your last text from?A deaf man who I don’t know (yet)
[1] Where was your default pic taken?Default pic? I don’t understand. Last pic of me was taken at the airport on Thursday
[2] Your relationship status?a widow
[3] Where did you meet your crush?online
[4] Have you ever lost a close friend?hmm… some have died
[5] What is your current mood?OK, benevolent… LOL[6] Whats your brother(s) names?no brothers
[7] Sister's names?no sisters
[8] Where do you wish you where (were) right now?in the mountains of Colorado
[9] Have a crazy side?Not sure, probably not, sure hope to stay normal for the rest of my life (and beyond LOL)
[10] Ever had a near death experience?I think so but how do I know for sure?
11 Ever farted on a date?No.
[12] Angry at anyone?Nope
[13] What's stopping you from going for the person you like?He does LOL[14] When was the last time you cried?Yesterday morning
[15] Is there anyone you would do anything for?No, not anything, never.
[16] What do you think about when you are falling asleep?Random stuff, trying not to think, stop all inner monologues
[17] Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?My son
[18] What is your favorite song?Too many (Morning Has Broken by Cat Stevens? LOL)
[19] What are you doing right now?This.[
20] Do you trust anyone right now?I trust most people, why not?
[21] Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?Don’t remember
[22] Have you hugged someone in the past week?No, I rarely hug anyone
[23] How many people have you loved?What’s love? I love my kids so two for sure
[24] Describe your life in one word!Quiet
[25] Who/What are you thinking of right now?right now my mind went blank LOL
[26] What should you be doing right now?Nothing, I do what I want to do
[27] What are you listening to?Nothing, silence’s the best
[28] Who was the last person who gave you a hug?Don’t remember… my daughter?
[30] Do you act differently around the person you like?Yes. I’m a perfect mirror When someone I like is around I act much better
[31] What is your natural hair color?Dark chocolate brown
[32] Who was the last person to make you laughMy son (he always does)
[33] Who was the last person to make you mad?Hmm… don’t remember really. I don’t get mad often
[34] What pets do you have?A cat and fish (cat’s actually my son’s)
[35] Is your hair naturally curly or straight?Straight
[36] Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?Nope[37] When did you loose your virginity?When I was 14. I was raped.
[38] Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?Nope
[39] Do you use smiley faces on the computer?Yes, all the time
[40] Plans for the weekend?It’s Sunday and no, no plans
[41] Are you happy with life right now?Yes[42] Are you currently jealous?Not really.
[43] What jewelry are you currently wearing?A ring and 3 earrings
[44] What are you doing Friday night?Whatever I want
[45] Have you ever had your heart broken?Yup, but it was my own fault – I put it into hands of a careless person and he dropped it ;))
[46] Have you ever broken someone's heart?Hopefully not
[47] Is there anybody you're really disappointed in?Not really
[48] Last person you saw?My son this morning leaving for work
[49] How late did you stay up last night and why?Until 2am because of the damned Farmville LOL
[50]How is your heart lately?Free
Friday, August 21, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
IT*S A GIRL!
I just found out the gender of my unborn grandchild - it's a GIRL!
http://www.chinesegenderchart.info/pregnancy-chart-gender-selection/howitwork.html
I found this and looked up myself, my daughter and my son, my daughter's baby and my best friend's both kids - so far it's correct!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
ABOUT BREAST CANCER (a letter)
Subject: Breast Cancer Statistics
To: kristin_tehvan@yahoo.com
Date: Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 3:09 PM
So you are saying that all the women who died of breast cancer could have cured themselves by changing their thinking.
http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/understand_bc/statistics.jsp?gclid=CKiasp6p6psCFRFWagodoTq15w
***
Yes. I wonder if the book Metamedicine is available in English. Anyhow, most forms of "cancer" are really signs of improvement after a (long) period of conflict. Cutting them off, heavy chemical treatment and irradiation make people very sick and great fear + hopelessness is what really killing those women. Their bodies get very weak and toxic and they just give up, can't fight the fear etc.
I'm sorry for the poor wording, I'm having a little hangover LOL, can't concentrate at the moment.
As for me, I found a lump in my breast at the end of 2005. I did nothing. It didn't change. I was quite sure on my own (without reading any material etc) that unless I know for sure what I decide to do about it I would do nothing, just forget about it and see. So now, in June, if I rememebr right, maybe in May, the lump rapidly got bigger (about the size of an egg) and started hurting. I had just a few month ago started to change my thinking and attitude towards life etc. It really is hard to talk about those things as there are no correct words and terms to talk about spiritual stuff. I knew I had to release my wrong attitude, let go my resentment and my demands towards life/world/all the people I thought "owed" me this and that... (I'm rambling! I know, very bad LOL) Well anyway, I remember you were a key-person at that time, you helped me to release all that shit just by being there, and all of a sudden I was so happy and I went to the sea and walked in joy and rejoyced - no, I'm not an idiot, I just don't know English LOL
Well, the next day the lump was gone. Totally gone. no pain either. One big dark blue vessel is still there but it doesn't matter, it won't feed my "misery" anymore, I cut it off.
Later on I happened upon the book Metamedicine and it was a pleasure to read it (mostly women who had had a breast cancer tell their stories there) - I could relate very closely to everything there. Btw, they say cancer in the left breast is the sign of a conflict with female relatives (often mother) and/or losing home - I had lump in my left breast and I had thought it's because of my conflict with men, but then I realized it was my inability to forgive my mother for my sad childhood, not getting divorced, holding up to this stupid house my father owned and so on, and it was also my grief about losing my home which I couldn't let go. Conflicts with men create lumps/cancer in the right breast and I have had no problems with my right breast.
As for arthritis - it is always a sing of riGid creed (belief). It's usually old people's condition. They think they know it all and are not willing to reconsider anything or change anything. I suppose it's very comfortable to have a "ready" textbook for everything in life. It's hard to change your thinking when you are old...
Hands (wrists, arms) are means of giving and receiving. Usually it is interpreted that the left hand is receiving hand and the right hand is giving hand (can be and probably is on the contrary when the person is left-handed). I personally think that you have lost your ability to receive and by getting your wrist operated on and taking medicine to soothe the pain you now have no reason to change. But that doesn't make your problems go away, you just don't have to work on them right now. But it's possible that you will get bigger problems (physically) later on. Especially hormones aren't things that I personally would mess with, they are way too important for our bodies. Remember, I gave up my medicine for my thyroid gland and I'm doing fine now. Instead of taking medicine (my doc said I would have to take them for the rest of my life!!!) and getting my thyroid gland operated on (thus making the process irreversible) I started working on my attitude.
Actually it's very simple - whatever we are here for (and the "MEANING" of life was always so very important to me!!!) - we can make it really simple and say that we are TO BE HAPPY AND IF POSSIBLE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY AS WELL. Actually we ARE making others happy just by being happy. We simply add to the GREATER GOOD and that's somthing that everybody can do, no matter what their "facts of life" are. I realized that I had been carrying a very heavy baggage with me through my whole life - the discontentment with the world, - my parents, my conditions, my late husband, my fucked up personality and so on and on. I realized that nothing stops me of getting it off of my back and just leave it there and go on with my hands in my pockets and whistle on my lips. It sounds easy, but strangely enough it can be tricky... because - WHO ARE WE WITHOUT OUR BAGGAGES? I know the answer. Do you?
I'll add a pic to this email, it helped me a lot. It acutally made me understand why some people can be so cheerful in life while others see only sorrow. It's what you concentrate on. We all see what we want to see.
Sending you Love and Light and a hug :)
K.
To: kristin_tehvan@yahoo.com
Date: Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 3:09 PM
So you are saying that all the women who died of breast cancer could have cured themselves by changing their thinking.
http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/understand_bc/statistics.jsp?gclid=CKiasp6p6psCFRFWagodoTq15w
***
Yes. I wonder if the book Metamedicine is available in English. Anyhow, most forms of "cancer" are really signs of improvement after a (long) period of conflict. Cutting them off, heavy chemical treatment and irradiation make people very sick and great fear + hopelessness is what really killing those women. Their bodies get very weak and toxic and they just give up, can't fight the fear etc.
I'm sorry for the poor wording, I'm having a little hangover LOL, can't concentrate at the moment.
As for me, I found a lump in my breast at the end of 2005. I did nothing. It didn't change. I was quite sure on my own (without reading any material etc) that unless I know for sure what I decide to do about it I would do nothing, just forget about it and see. So now, in June, if I rememebr right, maybe in May, the lump rapidly got bigger (about the size of an egg) and started hurting. I had just a few month ago started to change my thinking and attitude towards life etc. It really is hard to talk about those things as there are no correct words and terms to talk about spiritual stuff. I knew I had to release my wrong attitude, let go my resentment and my demands towards life/world/all the people I thought "owed" me this and that... (I'm rambling! I know, very bad LOL) Well anyway, I remember you were a key-person at that time, you helped me to release all that shit just by being there, and all of a sudden I was so happy and I went to the sea and walked in joy and rejoyced - no, I'm not an idiot, I just don't know English LOL
Well, the next day the lump was gone. Totally gone. no pain either. One big dark blue vessel is still there but it doesn't matter, it won't feed my "misery" anymore, I cut it off.
Later on I happened upon the book Metamedicine and it was a pleasure to read it (mostly women who had had a breast cancer tell their stories there) - I could relate very closely to everything there. Btw, they say cancer in the left breast is the sign of a conflict with female relatives (often mother) and/or losing home - I had lump in my left breast and I had thought it's because of my conflict with men, but then I realized it was my inability to forgive my mother for my sad childhood, not getting divorced, holding up to this stupid house my father owned and so on, and it was also my grief about losing my home which I couldn't let go. Conflicts with men create lumps/cancer in the right breast and I have had no problems with my right breast.
As for arthritis - it is always a sing of riGid creed (belief). It's usually old people's condition. They think they know it all and are not willing to reconsider anything or change anything. I suppose it's very comfortable to have a "ready" textbook for everything in life. It's hard to change your thinking when you are old...
Hands (wrists, arms) are means of giving and receiving. Usually it is interpreted that the left hand is receiving hand and the right hand is giving hand (can be and probably is on the contrary when the person is left-handed). I personally think that you have lost your ability to receive and by getting your wrist operated on and taking medicine to soothe the pain you now have no reason to change. But that doesn't make your problems go away, you just don't have to work on them right now. But it's possible that you will get bigger problems (physically) later on. Especially hormones aren't things that I personally would mess with, they are way too important for our bodies. Remember, I gave up my medicine for my thyroid gland and I'm doing fine now. Instead of taking medicine (my doc said I would have to take them for the rest of my life!!!) and getting my thyroid gland operated on (thus making the process irreversible) I started working on my attitude.
Actually it's very simple - whatever we are here for (and the "MEANING" of life was always so very important to me!!!) - we can make it really simple and say that we are TO BE HAPPY AND IF POSSIBLE TO MAKE OTHERS HAPPY AS WELL. Actually we ARE making others happy just by being happy. We simply add to the GREATER GOOD and that's somthing that everybody can do, no matter what their "facts of life" are. I realized that I had been carrying a very heavy baggage with me through my whole life - the discontentment with the world, - my parents, my conditions, my late husband, my fucked up personality and so on and on. I realized that nothing stops me of getting it off of my back and just leave it there and go on with my hands in my pockets and whistle on my lips. It sounds easy, but strangely enough it can be tricky... because - WHO ARE WE WITHOUT OUR BAGGAGES? I know the answer. Do you?
I'll add a pic to this email, it helped me a lot. It acutally made me understand why some people can be so cheerful in life while others see only sorrow. It's what you concentrate on. We all see what we want to see.
Sending you Love and Light and a hug :)
K.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
LOL
*Truly stupid things found on other things.
On Sears hairdryer:Do not use while sleeping.(Gee, that's the only time I have to work on my hair!)
On a bag of Fritos:You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.(The shoplifter special!)
On a bar of Dial soap:Directions: Use like regular soap.(And that would be how?)
On some Swann frozen dinners:Serving suggestion: Defrost.(But it's 'just' a suggestion!)
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert: (printed on bottom of the box)Do not turn upside down.(Too late! you lose!)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding:Product will be hot after heating.(Are you sure? Let's experiment.)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron:Do not iron clothes on body.(But wouldn't that save more time?)(Whose body?)
On Boot's Children's cough medicine:Do not drive car or operate machinery.(We could do a lot to reduce the construction accidents if we just kept those 5 year olds off those forklifts.)
On Nytol sleep aid:Warning: may cause drowsiness.(One would hope!)
On a Korean kitchen knife:Warning: keep out of children.(hmm...something must have gotten lost in the translation...)
On a string of Christmas lights:For indoor or outdoor use only.(As opposed to use in outer space.)
a food processor:Not to be used for the other use.(Now I'm curious.)
On Sainsbury's peanuts:Warning: contains nuts.(but no peas?)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts:Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.(Somebody got paid big bucks to write this one...)
On a Swedish chainsaw:Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands.(Raise your hand if you've tried this...)
On a child's Superman costume:Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly.(Oh go ahead! That's right, destroy a universal childhood belief.)
On Sears hairdryer:Do not use while sleeping.(Gee, that's the only time I have to work on my hair!)
On a bag of Fritos:You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.(The shoplifter special!)
On a bar of Dial soap:Directions: Use like regular soap.(And that would be how?)
On some Swann frozen dinners:Serving suggestion: Defrost.(But it's 'just' a suggestion!)
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert: (printed on bottom of the box)Do not turn upside down.(Too late! you lose!)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding:Product will be hot after heating.(Are you sure? Let's experiment.)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron:Do not iron clothes on body.(But wouldn't that save more time?)(Whose body?)
On Boot's Children's cough medicine:Do not drive car or operate machinery.(We could do a lot to reduce the construction accidents if we just kept those 5 year olds off those forklifts.)
On Nytol sleep aid:Warning: may cause drowsiness.(One would hope!)
On a Korean kitchen knife:Warning: keep out of children.(hmm...something must have gotten lost in the translation...)
On a string of Christmas lights:For indoor or outdoor use only.(As opposed to use in outer space.)
a food processor:Not to be used for the other use.(Now I'm curious.)
On Sainsbury's peanuts:Warning: contains nuts.(but no peas?)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts:Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.(Somebody got paid big bucks to write this one...)
On a Swedish chainsaw:Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands.(Raise your hand if you've tried this...)
On a child's Superman costume:Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly.(Oh go ahead! That's right, destroy a universal childhood belief.)
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
MY GARDEN
If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need. Marcus Tullius Cicero
Show me your garden and I shall tell you what you are. Alfred Austin
The best place to find God is in a garden. You can dig for him there. George Bernard Shaw
Won't you come into the garden? I would like my roses to see you. Richard Brinsley Sheridan
Want to be happy forever? - Plant a garden. /can't find the source/
Mul on akna peal aed / I have a garden on my window
Seal kasvab porgand, kuusk, asalea ja kaks tundmatut lille / There's a carrot, a spur, an azalea and two unknown flowers
Ja üks ämblikuvõrk, mis saab nähtavaks õhtul / And a cobweb that lights up at sunset
Show me your garden and I shall tell you what you are. Alfred Austin
The best place to find God is in a garden. You can dig for him there. George Bernard Shaw
Won't you come into the garden? I would like my roses to see you. Richard Brinsley Sheridan
Want to be happy forever? - Plant a garden. /can't find the source/
Mul on akna peal aed / I have a garden on my windowSeal kasvab porgand, kuusk, asalea ja kaks tundmatut lille / There's a carrot, a spur, an azalea and two unknown flowers
Ja üks ämblikuvõrk, mis saab nähtavaks õhtul / And a cobweb that lights up at sunset
Monday, July 20, 2009
TRIP TO MUHUMAA 16 - 18 JULY
This is the small island where Marit has a small summer house
Leaving the port Virtsu
Our car was the last on to get on this ferry. The crossing of the bay took only 30 minutes.
Kuivastu port, Muhumaa
Marit
The kids went right into the pond
Marit's hut hiding in the bush
The road to the beach - there's junipers everywhere on Estonia's islands
We found unbelievable amount of wild strawberries everywhere
Yumm....
The porch
The pond seen from the porch
Ivonna-Ly (11) with the berries she picked
Kärttu (10), Marit's daughter, the spoiled nest-egg ;)
Didn't like to pick but sure likes to eat ;))
The hut. It has one big room where we all slept
The nearest neighbor's house, Marit's partner Merle's property
First time we went to the sea I forgot to take any pics because I was too busy with swimming in amazingly lukewarm water. This time we went to see the wild swans later at night. (Marit)
Marit and Caesar waiting me up while I'm taking pics of every flower, straw and such LOL
Isn't it delightful?
Caesar is a rescue-dog by heart. It was really difficult to swim while he was trying to "save" us from drowning (I still have a big blue line on my thigh from his claw :P
We didn't get anywhere near to the swans, so I zoomed in and just took a pic without seeing what I got. Later on I was happy to realize that I did get some swans on the picture.
Our kitchen/livingroom
Later that night Marit's other friends joined us. Here's Margit (36) with her daughter Katriin (12) and I took that pic mainly because I was surprised that they really looked like sisters (almost twins!) Margit is 5'9'' and Katriin is almost same.
Marit, our host, maid and cook. I just adore people who won't ail over their figure and feel completely free in every situation :) I have so much to learn from her!
Cooking us breakfast the next morning, Friday
Assol dressing up to a 85 F weather (~ 30 C) She claimed that she was ill...
Later this morning Marit and I went to the port to pick up my daughter Dagni who was brought there by her man Egon who was going to Saaremaa for a big beer-festival called Õlletoober(kibble) He's originally from Saaremaa so that's where all his buddies are to meet once a year.
Dagni and Assol sunbathing
I sat there almost all day in the sun... No wonder I got totally sunburnt. I can't understand why I didn't think of a sun screen or something, I haven't been sunbathing for over 6 years! Later that night I was in bed with shivers and later got blisters which start to break by now. What fun!
Ivonna-Ly (Assol's daughter), Kärttu and Katriin playing cards
I asked Dagni to pose for me, I want to have nice pics of my pregnant daughter. I have none of myself which is kinda sad... She's 8 months pregnant by now, I think she's still beautiful :)
She thinks her legs are too fat so I had to promise that I wouldn't put thouse pics on any site where her firends could see them. Well, luckily none of them knows this blog :P
Lunch time
I think it's kind of meaningful and wonderful that our gang was composed of 4 mothers and 4 daughters :)AND HERE ARE SOME IRRELEVANT PICS which I took here and there, I just love to take pics of flowers and nature in general. It's the most beautiful model there is...
My ikebana
Juniper's berries
Thyme
The sun in the bottle
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